Angel Haze Cleaning Out My Closet

When I was 10, shit, I believed I could fly

I would just flap my fucking arms and meet with the sky

And in my mind I would invision I was speaking with God

And then I chop his fucking fist off and beat him with mine

But this is just a fucking portion of the war with my mind

So I’m a take you fuckers back into the vortex of time

When I was 7 invision me at the bottom of stairs

And I silently swear that this is the truth no falacy here

See I was young man… I was just a toddler a kid

And he wasn’t the first to successfully try what he did

He took me to the basement and after the lights would be cut

He whipped it out in sight of my eyes and forced his cock through my gut

See it was weird because I felt that I was losing my mind

And then it happened like it happened like milions of times

And I would swear that I would tell but then they’d think I was lying

And now the power that he held was like a beacon in mine

So now I got used to it, I put up with the shit

And now my hate was so Vocanicly eruptive and shit

But this is nothing ’cause I guess he told his friend what he do

And they ate it up shit I was like a buffet for 2

And then it happened then at home where everybody fucking knew

And they ain’t do shit but fucking blame it on youth

I’m sorry mom but I really used to blame it on you

But even you by then wouldn’t know what to do

And now it happened so often that he was getting particular

And I more scared every time I worked in my speed and ventricular

One night he came home and I was asleep in my bed

He climbed on top of me and forced himself between my legs

He told me

“Hey ray, I see you like them popsicle sticks

So put your mouth on my dick and suck and swallow the spit”

And I was confused but I was scared so I did what he said

I had no idea the affect it would have on my head

My heart was pumping it was stumping with like tons of my fear

Imagine being 7 seeing cum in yo underwear

I know it’s nasty but sometimes I’d even bleed from my butt

Disgusting right, now let that feeling ring through your guts

I thought of offing myself I thought of killing these niggas

Wanted to take a fucking brick and push their teeth through their liver

Wanted to smash like the fucking world and burn it’s leftover part

Wanted to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart

Then I grew up and I wasn’t within a reach of these men

But that didn’t keep out of motherfucking reach of my sin

And psychologically I was just as fucked as they come

I was confused I had to prove I wasn’t fucked from the jump

I was afraid of myself I had no love for myself

I tried to kill I tried to hide I tried to run from myself

There was a point in my life where I didn’t like who I was

So I create the other people I would try to become

Sexuality came into play and with as scarred as I was

I was extremely scared of men so I start liking girls

I started starving myself fucked up my bodily health

I didn’t want to be attractive to nobody else

I didn’t want the appeal wanted to stop my own growth

But there’s a fucking reason behind every scar that I show

I never got to be a kid so that’s as far as I grow

My mental state is out of date and that’s how far as I know

My biggest problem was fear what being fearful could do

It made me run it made me hide it made me scared of the truth

I’m not deranged anymore I’m not the same anymore

I mean I’m sane but I’m insane but not the same as before

I had to deal with my shit I had to look at my truth

To understand that to grow you gotta look at your root

I had to cut off the dead I had to make myself proud

And I’m just standing breathing living proof look at me now

I made it through everything I made you look like a clown

I’m fucking great k fucking hate you nigga look at me now

And I’m just saying this to tell you there’s a way from the ground

The makings of a legend is often hiden in thorns

So just move on and just be strong and just accept what you can

Because it makes your story better when you read it, the end

That’s the story of every scar that I show

I made it out this a mean nobody’s goten before

I had to open my wounds I had to bleed till I stop

Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet

I said I opened my wounds I had to bleed till I stop

Thanks for joining me here as I cleaned out my closet

Angel Haze Battle Cry

[Sia:]

Money cannot buy

All the love that’s here tonight

All the love that’s here tonight

It’s just you and I

So lift your hands toward the sky

Lift your hands toward the sky

[Angel Haze:]

It seems like yesterday that I was nothin’

Then all of a sudden I’m a volcanic eruption

Then all of a sudden it’s like spontaneous combustion

And I’m all up in your face yellin’, “Bitch, you can tell me nothin’!”

‘Cause I came from the bottom, now everybody’s watchin’

I said it was my time, now I’m who everybody’s clockin’

And I’m just out here sprintin’, I’m runnin’ right through my vision

I’m trying to outrun my past, but still trying to defeat my limits

‘Cause you only get one moment in this life to be great

And you give it your all despite what it takes

And you never let ’em kill you, you take everything they give you

And throw it right fuckin’ at ’em and tell ’em it doesn’t build you

And no it don’t ever break you, and no it can’t overtake you

Life’s like a bed of roses, you take the thorns and you make do

Sometimes you have to hurt for the ’cause to be reached

But one day you’ll be stronger than all that you beat

And you can say

[Sia:]

Money cannot buy

All the love that’s here tonight

All the love that’s here tonight

It’s just you and I

So lift your hands toward the sky

Lift your hands toward the sky

[Angel Haze:]

I woke up one Sunday morning, stopped believing in Jesus

Stopped believing in churches, I stopped believing in preachers

I realized I was a teacher, not just one of the heathens

I’m born to destroy the fallacies, start creating believers

Start creating the leaders, tell ’em who they should follow

Nobody but themselves, especially if they hollow

Especially when they’re empty, and death reserved for fulfillment

You’re the only person alive who holds the key to your healin’

So you take it and you run with it

And keep going even when your sun’s hidden

Because the time we spend in darkness when the rain come

Is where we often find the light soon as the pain’s done

There ain’t material things in the world

That can change the fact that you feel alone

Despite the fact that it gets hard

You take it all and you still go

Take the sun and you still grow

Lose the light and you still glow

I been there, I’m still here and I know how you feel, so

[Sia:]

Money cannot buy

All the love that’s here tonight

All the love that’s here tonight

It’s just you and I

So lift your hands toward the sky

Lift your hands toward the sky

[Bridge:]

We don’t wanna fight

So sing with me our battle cry

Sing with me our battle cry

Money cannot buy

All the love that’s here tonight

All the love that’s here tonight

[Angel Haze:]

It’s hard to explain my way of living to people who never lived it

A minute in my position filled with my opposition

To anybody not different fighting to stay the same

I got lives in my hands and I’m fighting to make ’em change

Can’t accept responsibility, find somebody to blame

The emotions that I’m harboring ’bout to drive me insane

Tried to say, “Fuck everything,” but I ain’t have a heart to

Rarely had a heart to do a lot of things I ought to

So now I spit it for people who say their cords missing

Inspire life into anybody that’s forfeiting

‘Cause it’s easy to keep pretending that there’s nothing wrong

But it’s harder to keep your head up and be fucking strong

So, now they’re telling me, “Go, Haze, they can’t stop you

Heavyweight flow, if they can’t lift you then they can’t drop you

The pinnacle, if they can’t reach you then they can’t top you

Man, they can’t do anything that you’re about to.”

[Sia:]

Money cannot buy

All the love that’s here tonight

All the love that’s here tonight

It’s just you and I

So lift your hands toward the sky

Lift your hands toward the sky

We don’t wanna fight

So sing with me our battle cry

Sing with me our battle cry

Money cannot buy

All the love that’s here tonight

All the love that’s here tonight

Angel Haze Resurrection

2014, the year I died

Now I’m resurrected like Jesus Christ

I mean, y’all can tell by the shit I drive

When the doors go “Ah” like frequent flights

I mean, look inside my crib, look inside my whip

Big old body men and I can’t drive for shit

If I phone home is a spaceship

Nigga, in my budget was a motherfuckin’ facelift, nigga what

Anyway, fuck what you heard and shit

I’m from 7 mile, I make urban shit

And my homies all fuck suburban chicks

But I just keepin’ player with my urban bitch

I’m yellin’ “D-day, d-day, d-day, d-day, d-day”

You a broke bitch, I don’t relay, relay

Before I even show up they gotta prepay, prepay

May in time runnin’ out, bit relay, relay, relay

I just bought an island wildin’ crib

So big they doubled up the brokerage fee

Bitches see me park and go wild and be screamin’ “Hey Professor Oglevee”

Exes, flexin’, sexin’, textin’

I don’t really care, I caught me a colder piece

I just let my shit get so strong, can’t nobody here hold me?

Yeah, resurrection, woo

Damn, my perfection

I just doubled down and make them niggas learn their lesson

I was like “Yeah, resurrection”, woohoo

2016, the year I rise

Like the Phoenix, yeah man, my shit on fire

Copt the new McClan just to sit outside

And if you disrespect me yea the clit gonna ride

Wait, please dont front all my shit lke that

Woah bitch don’t touch, hold my shit like that

Lost all my soul just to get that plaque

And it’s been way too long for me to get that back

Wait, not that I say I regret it

We only fuck if you match my aesthetic

Wait, I think they all just rejecting

Hate what you not and that shit is pathetic

Wait, I just do what my perspective

And I guess they got some power to it

I just moved out of direction

Then I drove like 30 hours to it

I just bought an island wildin’ crib

So big they doubled up the brokerage fee

Bitches see me park or go wild and be screamin’

Exes, flexin’, sexin’, textin’

I don’t really care, I caught me a colder piece

I just let my shit get so strong, can’t nobody here hold me?

Yeah, resurrection, woo

Damn, my perfection

I just doubled down and make them niggas learn their lesson

I was like “Yeah, resurrection”, woohoohoo

No one, no one, no one can save you now

You die upon the devil, raise you now

Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

Resurrection

No one, no one, no one could save me now

I die upon the devil, raise me now

And call me nothing new