Apartment 26 New Year’s Resolution

My resolution this year? I’ll disappear completely.

My absolution nearer, I’ll reappear discretely

Calling underground people,

With your underground hearts;

You could start a mainstream fire

With your underground sparks.

Keeping all your underground thoughts

From the surface above,

Realize it is inside those minds

Where revolutions start.

Your only failure will be thinking you see right through me.

When things become much clearer, I’ll know just where you have been.

On and on I feel you slide

Deep into my memory, slowly.

I look behind to find you stood in front of me,

Adding to elements of subtraction.

Taken from that backwards heart,

And mistaken for love,

I search for ways to compensate for

Simple words no longer true to me.

My resolution this year? I’ll disappear completely.

My absolution nearer, I’ll reappear.

Your only failure will be thinking you see right through me.

When things become much clearer, I’ll know just where you have been.

Suddenly I’m in a place I’ve never seen before.

In front of me a faceless figure that I’ve seen before;

Undeterred by motions of distraction, and it’s coming to me.

Your life (undeterred my motions of distractions)

You’re right (and it’s coming to me)

You’re alive (undeterred by motions of distraction)

But your mind wont think what it’s supposed to.

Apartment 26 Apt. 26

Repetition of my mind inside decline

I’m sick of all the people telling me to read between the lines

Deja vu? True, Inside it is you.

I know I live inside a world who hates my mind

but I don’t mind the hate

Again, again baby bitch socialist

Synchronize the synthesis, belive in your existance

I hate you, but could not change you, so

I wonder what he said, either way I’m dead

Stupid inset, stupid inset

I wonder what she said, all the way my friend

Stupid inset, stupid inset

The repetition of our minds, beside and behind

I’m sick of all the people telling me to read between their lines

Deja vu? True. Inside it is you

I know I live inside a mind who hates the world so I reinvent.

I wonder what he said, either way I’m dead

Stupid inset, stupid inset

I wonder what she said, all the way my friend

Stupid inset, stupid inset

Synchronize the synthesis. Believe in your existance

I live inside a world who hates my mind so I reinvent

I live inside a head you hates the world so I reinvent. I reinvent.

I reinvent.

Deja vu? True. Inside it is you

I know I live inside a world who hates the world so I reinvent.

I wonder what he said, either way I’m dead

Stupid inset, stupid inset

I wonder what she said, all the way my friend

Stupid inset, stupid inset

Apartment 26 88

Accumulate into one

The second half has begun

And I’m not the judge.

Innocent are hung

Remain unsung

And I hold a grudge.

Take a stab in the dark

And then it comes as a shock

Finger on the pulse.

Everything that can

Happens to the man;

See the mannequin smile.

When I am running out

I am running out.

I am running out.

Switch the moon and the sun

Shield and the gun

Clip after clip.

I’d love to stay and watch

Make mine what you clutch;

Empire slips.

The weight is too much to hold

Excuses old

I realize.

Everything that can

Happens to the man

See the mannequin smile.

You don’t get it like I get it. (you don’t get it) like I do.

You don’t get it like I get it. (you don’t get it) like I do.

When I am running out

I am running out.

I am running out.

Empire slips.

Excuses old

I realize.

Everything that can

Happens to the man

See the mannequin smile.

When I am running out

I am running out.

I am running out.

Apartment 26 Hallucinating

Who are you? Who are you? I don’t know

Turn my back, turn my back, then I’ll see you

Never seen, never seen, like a sixth sense

Who am I tonight?

Coloured lights, doubled twice, resurrecting

In my mind, countless signs, misleading

As I pass, see the last, ever changing

Lifted up, interrupt, all knowing

Something in my head – Telling me to feel like this

Something in my mind – Wanting me to think like this

I can feel, I can feel, feel your presence

Good or bad, good or bad, nothing to me

Come to me, come to me, truest comfort

Who am I tonight?

Peeling glass, feel the past, never ending

Feel my hands, cross the lands, revealing

Morphing eyes, true disguise, while predicting

Passing time, come to mind, all showing

Who am I supposed to be, if I don’t know who I am

If I don’t trust in myself to be what I’m supposed to be

Something in my head – Telling me to feel like this

Something in my mind – Wanting me to think like this

What are we, what are we, mental mischief

Too alive, too alive, never living

Coming down, coming down, living 2-D

Who was I last night?

Waking up to a world non existing

Shake your head, wake the dead from sleeping

Positive, negative, come to find out

Just as real as it feels, it’s growing

Something in my head – Telling me to feel like this

Something in my mind – Wanting me to think like this

Apartment 26 5 Day Rental

You would not believe what I saw

One hundred million faces

Screaming at me from behind a wall

They cut the wire, those bastards.

It wasn’t enough to bleed and never enough

To lure you down the corridor

Yeah, my room’s right at the end.

Set to expel, and I was

A steady increase, yes I was

And I’m getting ready to return it to you.

And now I’m so far gone

Just thinking about it.

I haven’t changed my mind

So forget about it.

I’m unafraid of those approaching dogs

Yeah, fuck them I’m five times their size

Cut off the balls, gauge out the eyes

Turn down the sound and adjust the lighting.

I don’t have enough to feed you and

Your mouth full of uncertainty

The image that I’m left with

Is both pleasing and confusing.

I will put up a fight and I will end up forgetting

To return it to you.

Now I’m so far gone

Just thinking about it

I haven’t changed my mind

Yeah, forget about it.

It is not enough to beat

No not enough to warrant you breaking my bones

I said I’m so far gone

Just forget about it.

Be kind. rewind.

You’ll get a fine.

I’m getting ready to return it to you.

Now I’m so far gone

Just thinking about it

You haven’t changed my mind

Yeah, forget about it.

It is not enough to beat

No not enough to warrant you breaking my bones

Now I’m so far gone

Just forget about it.

Apartment 26 Bruised

Bruised, but I won’t tell about that

I can’t escape the monotony of hate

And forgiveness can not become me

You can not come back to me

I won’t sink to this (wonderful)

The tongue is in the cheek

If only my will was not so weak

You’re so wrong, and so wrong

At least I think I’ve learned a lesson

’cause I can look back with retrospect

But not to ponder, and not to wonder

You are so wrong

I couldn’t build it up to take it down

And I get you’re so strong

I couldn’t build it up to take up down

Hands appear at night

I feel as though I’ve been awake for days

But I shed my skin, and I shed my sleep chains

Look the other way as you come my way

You look slimmer and your breasts look better than ever

What the fuck?

No one ever sees, no one ever hears

All they can do is breathe, stop and touch

[x2]

You are so wrong

I couldn’t build it up to take it down

And I get you’re so strong

I couldn’t build it up to take up down

Apartment 26 Death

I love the sound of your tears

I can’t listen anymore

Are you choking on your words?

He never got on his knee

If one little push is all it took

Maybe one would help to realize

You’re the edge on which I live

I stare but I see nothing

You’re not here to guide me

Can’t break the flow – one more push

Give it to me

You should know that I’ll take more from you

Give it to me

You should hope that I will not cut you out

Take one last look as me and tell me if I change

Or just give in to temptations around me

Maybe when I come back I’ll be known a little more

But then I could be known less

Misconceptions made me

Give it to me

You should know that I’ll take more from you

Give it to me

You should hope that I will not cut you out

Sounds are not so clear

Distortion making clearer

(Hounded/Handed) out kisses

Slow it down, but make it faster

Finish up the beinning

Shine the light on my shadow

Relaxation techniques

Pointing at an arrow

Reach out your arms to be held

Stretch out your mouth to be loved

Can’t break the flow – one more push

[x3]

Give it to me

You should know that I’ll take more from you

Give it to me

You should hope that I will not cut you out

Apartment 26 Summer

Mrs. Kirby, you shouldn’t have

Serve me. Get it.

Entertain the thought of sheer elation.

Hold tight. Tighter.

Immanent dives ’til the sun rises.

Entice. Approach.

Chill to the thought of pure delight.

Venture deeper.

Every moment is its own occasion.

Sorry, who are you? My memory’s hazy.

Thoughts I can’t control, they drive me crazy.

Let us relive them tonight.

Sorry, who are you? Seductive lady.

Thoughts I can’t control will drive me crazy.

Of course I will set you right.

You’ll find out

Abruptly

That you’re cold

The water was warm.

Do remember summer?

Maybe you’d like another

Just take a number

and wait your turn, just wait

We light a fire, ignite and burn

Come back. Give it.

Cogitate the fear of raw elation.

Hold tight. Tighter.

Subsequent fibs and compromises.

Aching for more.

Deliberative moves, immaculate planning.

Venture deeper.

Immanent dives ’til the sun arises.

You’ll find out

That you’re cold.

The water was warm.

Apartment 26 Anymore

I’m drowned out like I’m supposed to be

Nobody doubts your sanctity

I’m not alone, but I’m supposed to be

And so I doubt your faith in me

This isn’t real. I can not feel. I do not want.

Anymore

I am alive, but it’s not mine. I do not want

Anymore

If all I say turns to be true

And everything comes back to you

Then everything inside me figures out what I’m supposed to be

I shout out. Nobody’s listening

And they don’t care. Believe in me

You’re all cried out like you had asked to be

You’re all alone, no sympathy

This isn’t real. I can not feel. I do not want.

Anymore

I am alive, but it’s not mine. I do not want

Anymore

If all I say turns to be true

And everything comes back to you

Then everything inside me figures out what I’m supposed to be

Anymore [x4]

She bows down, persuasive to the skin

Both touch and taste pass into me

They’re not alone

Sometimes I wish you’re me

And then I doubt you’ll come to be

This isn’t real. I can not feel. I do not want.

Anymore

I am alive, but it’s not mine. I do not want

Anymore

If all I say turns to be true

And everything comes back to you

Then everything inside me figures out what I’m supposed to be

Apartment 26 Basic Breakdown

I’m being made to pick a side, now only fate can decide

They’re telling me to stand up and stand up

I’m being made to fake a slide, now differentiate my kind

I’m telling you to stand up and stand up

So get up! And get up!

Fuck it up! Yeah get up-Now!

And it feels bad to say I have nothing to show

And it feels wrong to say I have nowhere to go

I’ll come back to you, and you’ll see

I’ve had more than time to grow

Are you the one who hasn’t lied, impossible to define

Losing your right to stand up and stand up

Living life like a parasite

Do what you need to survive

Time to defy and stand up and stand up

And it feels bad to say I have nothing to show

And it feels wrong to say I have nowhere to go

I’ll come back to you, and you’ll see

I’ve had more than time to grow

[x2]

You’re facing breakdown all over again

Your basic breakdown

It’s so wrong, and it’s so wrong for me

It’s so wrong,

And it feels bad to say I have nothing to show

And it feels wrong to say I have nowhere to go

I’ll come back to you, and you’ll see

I’ve had more than time to grow