Ayria DOS

I’m fighting time

They fight for life

I’m standing still

I’m watching them fall down

Impurity that eats at me

Awakening the need for sacrifice

My weakness is

My tolerance

And ignorance of other’s lives

As people burn I’m watching my T.V.

Their faces pained

They don’t affect me

I’d love to help

My hands are tied right now

While I’m still learning how to help myself

A way

How to help myself

In my defense

I powerless to circumstance

A slave to my freedom

Immunity from all I see

Thank god for me

For what I have become

All we have to fear is fear of ourselves

I’d move but I can’t forgive myself

A part of me still wallows in self doubt

Don’t mess with me

There’s too much in my head

It’s not my fault

It’s just how I’ve been led

Impurity that eats at me

Awakening hate and sacrifice

My weakness is

My tolerance and ignorance of others lives

Ayria St. Edith

I saw your shadow in the darkened hall

You walked right over me, not knowing of your impending fall

And now they seek out you

They’re worshipping your eternal pain

But with technology comes insecurity and a lack of faith

I’m here to calm you down

I’m here to calm you down, but it’s over

It’s over

It’s over

Yes, it’s over

You’re in a tragic prison (it’s over)

So desperate to get out (it’s over)

I hope you find your way out (it’s over)

I’m scared you can’t exist (it’s over)

The worst is over now

You should go to sleep and try not to dream

I’d try to talk to you, but I’m afraid of what you could bring

I know that one woman couldn’t change the world, but you’ve changed this girl

A tortured place to be, I hope that you could find what you need

I’m here to calm you down

I’m here to calm you down, but it’s over

It’s over

It’s over

Yes, it’s over

You’re in a tragic prison (it’s over)

So desperate to get out (it’s over)

I hope you find your way out (it’s over)

I’m scared you can’t exist (it’s over)

And if you’re trying to find me, you’ve found me

And if you’re trying to find me, you’ve found me

And if you’re trying to find me, you’ve found me

And if you’re trying to find me, you’ve found me

Ayria Cutting

Tell me how to feel

Show me what is real

I tried to back away but everwhere’s the same

And in this over-conscious world all I want to do is dream

I don’t know what you held on to

To get this far but I need some too

Because I’m slipping from existence

And there’s just no resistence

To stop this all from happening

Today the pain

It got so bad I had to scream

I’m cutting myself

Because I cannot face

The world around me

Is nothing

I’m cutting up myself

Because there’s no way out

Dispersing what I feel

So I feel nothing

I don’t know what to do

To be as numb as you

I must be doing something wrong to always feel this down

With an overwhelming urge to shout at those around

I tried to reach out to the past

But the lesson learned is to not look back

The memories will just confuse

An overwhelmed and frightened youth

I’ve learned to accept it

I know that that’s pathetic

I can’t explain to others

I know that they’ll reject it

Today the pain

It got so bad I had to scream

I’m cutting myself

Because I cannot face

The world around me

Is nothing

I’m cutting up myself

Because there’s no way out

Dispersing what I feel

So I feel nothing

Today the pain

It got so bad I had to scream

Today the pain

It felt so bad I had to scream

I had to scream

I had to scream

I had to scream

Ayria Analog Trash

I’ve got a secret

I’ve been watching you

I know you’re damaged

But I still want you

You’re analog trash

When life is digital

But I prefer you

I think you’re beautiful

Pull back, realign

We are flawed by design

Unplug just for fun

Stop before we hurt someone

Standard uniform

Corporate life has gone too far

Excess commodity

I want you just for me

This little secret

Gives me something to do

My new obsession

To be like you

You’re analog trash

When life is digital

But I prefer this

Unreplicatable

Pull back, realign

We are flawed by design

Unplug just for fun

Stop before we hurt someone

Standard uniform

Corporate life has gone too far

Excess commodity

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I’ve got a secret

I’ve been watching you

I know you’re damaged

But I still want you

You’re analog trash

When life is digital

But I prefer you

I think you’re beautiful

Come on

It’s not what you think

Come on

Just come away with me

Come on

There’s so much more to this

Come on

That life you will not miss

Pull back, realign

We are flawed by design

Unplug just for fun

Stop before we hurt someone

Standard uniform

Corporate life has gone too far

Excess commodity

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

I want you just for me

Ayria Winter Love Song

Feel the twilight glow

In the falling snow

And here you are

Smiling at me like you can’t feel the cold

Hand in hand we walk

There’s no need to say a word

With no other sounds but the

Gentle sigh of an icy exhale

The world looks good dead

It looks so good dead you said

It looks so good dead

It looks so good dead instead

Even though

Your body was cold

When I embraced you

I swear I’ve never felt something so warm

The world looks good dead

It looks so good dead you said

The world looks good dead

It looks so good dead instead

A slowing pulse

My lips are blue

I kiss to feel the calm in you

It’s strange I’m sure

But I prefer

The lifelessness of the world

A slowing pulse

My lips are blue

I kiss to feel the calm in you

It’s strange I’m sure

But I prefer

The lifelessness of the world

I love you

It’s all that’s true

I want together to grow old

You know that

We’re not perfect

But I think together we’ll come close

It’s hard to

Accept that

Things will change and that’s for sure

If we make it

We’ll look back

And know we’ll always have winter

The world looks good dead

It looks so good dead you said

The world looks good dead

It looks so good dead instead

Ayria Debris

In perfect rhythm marching

One beat uniting all these hearts

We stand for something somewhere

My strength and pride control my thoughts

I always thought the worst of almost everything I do

I never want to end up so fucking jaded like you

But you’ll never break me down

You just rip me from the core

I take what goes and comes around

It always leave me wanting more

I stand in line behind you

I breathe and live a silent dream

That I’ll fall out of step

But I’m taught that’s who I never want to be

I stay aligned with values

Are these the ones that I would choose

If I led this line

And had the power like you?

But you’ll never break me down

You just rip me from the core

I take what goes and comes around

It always leave me wanting more

This fire

Desire

You always thought you were a fighter

You knew you’d never win a fight

You always fought to be the fighter

You want to fight?

You never thought through your anger

You said you tried

You want to fight me?

Now everything crashes on you

You still try to fight

Well fuck you

You want to fuck?

You want to fuck me?

Ayria Kiss Me Goodnight As I’m Falling Asleep

The longest night

The longest hour that I have ever lived through

The softest cry

The painful longing of having ever lived through

Kiss me goodnight

Don’t say a word

We’re an illusion gripping at the only thing we know

The calm twilight

The quiet absence of having ever lived through

Kiss me goodnight

Don’t say a word

We’re an illusion gripping the unknown

Of all the things we could have been here in this night

We’re an illusion to our own

We’re an illusion all alone

You built your home

Planted your roots

I’m an intruder

An intrusion

Ayria The Gun Song

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun

Put it down

“Shut up,” he said

“Let me speak for a minute or two or three

Now you’re gonna stop interrupting me”

So what ya gonna do?

‘Cause looking in his face shows a life revealing years of pain

So we’ll drop down, let go all because he said so

Boys – with shiny violent killing

Toys – it’s all a bit too real now

Noise – this cycle will continue

Boys

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Shut up, my turn

To be heard using force is all that occured to him

And now he’s blaming everyone, ’cause he’s always been a victim

He’s filled with rage, heart beating so fast, don’t set him off

I try to make a move but the little boy says, “Shut up or I’ll kill ya”

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Shut up or I’ll kill ya

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Put it down, put it down

Boys – with shiny violent killing

Toys – it’s all a bit too real now

Noise – this cycle will continue

Boys – ’cause we can’t all be heroes

Boys – with shiny violent killing

Toys – it’s all a bit too real now

Noise – this cycle will continue

Boys – ’cause we can’t all be heroes

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun, put down the gun

Put down the gun

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Scatter gun

It’s a war game, making enemies and allies

Scatter gun

Pushed too hard, too fast, totally offside

Scatter gun

Big gun in the hands of a greedy man

Scatter gun

Take a hit, take a shot, just to take a stand

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Put it down, put it down, put it down

Ayria Invisible

I sit next to you

You look the other way

You saw me falter for one second of the day

Why am I so invisible to you?

Sometimes I hate you more than you could ever hate yourself

But I love you, would do anything for you

You don’t even see that I’m in pain

Frustration became humiliation

Waiting outside for you in the pouring rain

Rain, rain

Rain, rain

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

What’s left of my self worth – you crushed it in your hand

Wicked game to torture me because you can

You toy with me, then pull back

We’re never synched in time, we blew that

The sad thing

I’ve done the same before to someone else

But I love you, would do anything for you

You don’t even see that I’m in pain

Frustration becomes humiliation

I’m waiting outside for you in the pouring rain

Rain, rain

Rain, rain

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

But I love you, would do anything for you

You don’t even see that I’m in pain

Frustration became humiliation

Waiting outside for you in the pouring rain

Rain, rain

Rain, rain

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Tried so hard to be someone

I never was nobody

Tried too hard to play this game

I never was the winner

Ayria Girl On The Floor

Mirror, mirror on the wall

I’m just someone with no self-control

You don’t know the real me

But you get a glimpse

So you paint a picture

So vivid, but just so wrong

This little girl is broken this time

Broken

I’ve seen things no one should ever have to see

I paint a smile to tell the world I’m doing fine

While everything I’ve known flies out the window

I just want to leave this situation

I don’t want to reach this destination

Can’t you see I’ve lost the motivation

I want to leave this situation

Mirror, mirror on the wall

You see a girl with no self-control

You ask what I want

It’s complicated

The truth is I don’t know

I guess it’s not enough to be there sometimes

Sometimes

But I’ve been dealt a hand no one should ever have to play

I guess I’ve really messed up this time

Messed up this time

But I’m too tired to fake the strength behind this lie

I just want to leave this situation

I don’t want to reach this destination

Can’t you see I’ve lost the motivation

I want to leave this situation

And now I sit here

All alone and bored

My head is filled with advice I once ignored

That all you get from this moment

Is all you gave to your past

And all you get from this moment

Is what you gave to your past

I’m turning to the next thing

And I laugh just for this moment

I’m crying on the bathroom floor

Because nothing is the same

I’m turning to the next one

Then we’re laughing for the moment

I’m crying on the bathroom floor

I cannot regain strength

I just want to leave this situation

I don’t want to reach this destination

Can’t you see I’ve lost the motivation

I want to leave this situation

I just want to leave this situation

I don’t want to reach this destination

Can’t you see I’ve lost the motivation

I want to leave this situation

And now I sit here

All alone and bored

My head is filled with advice I once ignored

That all you get from this moment

Is all you gave to your past

And all you get from this moment

Is what you gave to your past