Ayria Bad List

Somehow, it feels I’m getting more frustrated

With every tongue-tied, wild-eyed, overrated

Narcissistic, self-absorbed

Spawn of generation bored

Want to see you vulnerable

I am not your equal

Ruling with an iron fist

And you are on my bad list

Routine casualty

Razor-sharp beauty queens

Bridges built, bridges burned

You will get what you deserve

What did they do

Made you so awful

Why do you say

The stupid things you do

The ones you’ve hurt

I hope they hurt you too

The things you’ve done

Will eat away at you

And now I think I’m done caring

Too many mindless, self-obsessed, overbearing

Misogynistic, plastic hearts

Can’t wait to see you torn apart

Want to see you vulnerable

I am not your equal

Ruling with an iron fist

And you are on my bad list

Routine casualty

Razor-sharp beauty queens

Bridges built, bridges burned

You will get what you deserve

What did they do

Made you so awful

Why do you say

The stupid things you do

The ones you’ve hurt

I hope they hurt you too

The things you’ve done

Will eat away at you

What did they do

Made you so awful

Why do you say

The stupid things you do

The ones you’ve hurt

I hope they hurt you too

The things you’ve done

Will eat away at you

You’ve made this list

You won’t be missed

You’ll have to learn

Some things you don’t deserve

What did they do

Made you so awful

Why do you say

The stupid things you do

The ones you’ve hurt

I hope they hurt you too

The things you’ve done

Will eat away at you

The things you’ve done

Will eat away at you

The things you’ve done

Will eat away at you

Ayria Substance

Sitting in a daze

It’s my favorite place

I’m happy all the time

But that’s a substance controlled state

The numbness of my mind

The comfort deep inside

Waiting all the time

For something else to take its place

What did you say?

It’s all a haze

It’s just a state but don’t take this all away

I don’t feel right

I don’t like this

I should take something to subside this

I’m happy once again

The chemicals kick in

Happy all the time

But it’s all because of them

The numbness of my mind

The comfort they provide

Waiting all the time

For something real to take their place

Ayria Mercury

The dull light lingers

The candle flickers

Beside you in the red

The beat of nameless songs

The pulsing flame goes on

I try to hear

But I am not there

I saw you for the first time today

With nothing left in the way

I’ve never felt this way before

I fear I’ll never feel this way again

What do you need to feel from me

Take what you want

What do you see?

On the ocean and beyond

Amidst the others

I’m waiting impatient

An echoed existence

The dull light lingers

The candle flickers

Beside you in the red

The beat of nameless songs

The pulsing flame goes on

I try to hear

But I am not there

The faces unfamiliar

I’ve never felt so close

A flickered little moment that goes on

That leaves me so sore

Ayria Horrible Dream

Suffering from bitterness

Not feeling so right

Uncontrolled-mismanaged hate

No one is right

Differences unforeseen

Bound to lead

At failed attempts to do something constructively

Diffuse it

Destroy it

Abuse it and enjoy it

This horrible dream

A horrible nightmare

A wonderful dream

A wonderful nightmare

This toxic mind provoking all hostility

Frail on the outer side, anxiety

Afraid of what I’m capable of damaging

Manifestation of a mental disease

Diffuse it

Destroy it

Abuse it and enjoy it

This horrible dream

A horrible nightmare

A wonderful dream

A wonderful nightmare

I cannot control this

Why can’t I do something?

Why can’t I do anything?

Why can’t I do something

To stop the hostility?

Ayria Blue Alice

I hope I’m dreaming

‘Cause this can’t be awake

I hope I’m dead

Just for my sake

Who knew all this would come

From a dirty gun

Son of a bitch

You thought he was a cowboy

The mad hatter bashes your face again

Look into his eyes and see where evil lives

Bullet through window

And down the rabbit hole

This is one fucked up fairy tale

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

You’ll get what’s coming

You and your children

The wicked witch has OD’d on pills again

And the dragon lights up a cigarette

He’s blowing smoke right into your face again

It’s off with their heads

Snakes are seething

The big bad wolf is rabid and teething

Bullet through window

And down the rabbit hole

This is one fucked up fairy tale

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

Little pig, little pig

Put her down

Slapped around

Choked and drowned

Little pig, little pig

Put her down

Slapped around

Choked and drowned

Little pig, little pig

Put her down

Slapped around

Choked and drowned

Little pig, little pig

Put her down

Slapped around

Choked and drowned

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Don’t end up like Alice

Hey you, black and blue

Watch out, you’ll end up like Alice

Ayria My Revenge On The World

Seems everything I did was wrong and now everything’s gone

Alone and silent, now this time is just for me

I never wanted a part of this that got inside of me

I thought I could get rid of you it’s not true

I wanted to get away I’ve never known what to say

You were behind me but never all the way

And now I’ll put up a fight this is destined to end tonight

A course of action, execution, start the sequence go!

One, Two, I’ll start with you because you had the most to lose

Three, Four, on the ground, humanity is going down

Five, Six, now attack, this time with no touchbacks

Seven, Eight, in spite of all our instincts we must strike

Mass of destruction lies in my wake, all this is for me to take

You were beside me but this revenge is just for me

This tidal wave of obsessive rage needing to satiate

The forces behind a hostile state

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten

All bets are off this time we’re shutting off

One, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten

And now, that’s right, you all fall down

Taking my attack stance right now

Making sure you all get knocked down

Don’t try anything that gets in my way

This time no one gets a say

One, Two, I’ll start with you because you had the most to lose

Three, Four, on the ground, your whole world crashing down

Five, Six, now attack, it’s time for payback

Seven, Eight, now I know everyone has got to go, now STRIKE!

Ayria Post Apocalyptic Girl

I feel something isn’t right

I think it is this world

When there’s nothing left to fight

We all fall down

We need a breakthrough

We need a breakthrough

We need a breakthrough now

We need a breakthrough

All I need is to know you’re out there

Another chance may be somewhere

But we want to start it all again

Follow me down

Alone middle of the night

It is the end of this world

I’d give everything I have

Just to get out

Took playing god one step too far

How could we been mistaken?

Man ruled from a counterfeit throne

We followed him down

Called it a breakthrough

Called it a breakthrough

We need a breakthrough now

We need a breakthrough

All I need is to know you’re out there

Another chance may be somewhere

But we want to start it all again

Follow me down

Nothing left for me to wish for

Wanting you is detrimental

All I have is the beating of my heart

We all fall down

You’re my shining star

Tell me where you are

You’re my shining star

Tell me where you are

Do you dream of me?

We need a breakthrough

We need a breakthrough

We need a breakthrough now

We need a breakthrough

All I need is to know you’re out there

Another chance may be somewhere

But we want to start it all again

Follow me down

Nothing left for me to wish for

Wanting you is detrimental

All I have is the beating of my heart

We all fall down

Follow me down..

Follow me down..

Ayria My Device

I walk alone

I tried my hand at something new

Without you

I’m better off

And on my own

I’ve fallen countless times but I’ve realized

I’m better off

I’m forgetting the mess that we were

Give and take

An eye for an eye

A tooth for a tooth

A sigh for a sigh

A lie for a lie

Without you I’m better off

Without you I’m better off

You were my device

A crutch that sustained me through life

Too crippled to put you aside

I never knew why

An eye for an eye

A bruise for a bruise

Was never enough

To satisfy you

Ayria Pink Dress

Now it’s all black

And feelings will conquer logic

So I crept out the back

Hopefully no one noticed

They said it’s suicide

She’s trapped inside her mind

She tastes like cyanide

Poisoned right through

I said I’m sorry

There was nothing I could do

You saw right through me

It’s something I could never do

I thought you would laugh

But nothing prepared me for this

When nature strikes back

Who knew she would be so wicked?

She looks so peaceful now

Just like a doll somehow

But they don’t see what I can see

She got to them and now she’s coming for me

I’m sorry

There was nothing I could do

You saw right through me

It’s something I could never do

She said disappear

That’s something I’m good at too

It you don’t keep quiet

They just might hear you too

I looked up to you

Idolized all you do

Was I the one that you pinned this on?

Well you won’t get to blame me anymore

They said it’s suicide

She’s trapped inside her mind

But they don’t see what I can see

That she’s poisoned right through

I told you that I don’t know where she could be

But I know that she is laughing down at me

They whispered;

‘This one looks smug in her pink dress’

I fled the scene

She’s innocent but she’s a mess

I’m sorry

There was nothing I could do

You saw right through me

It’s something I could never do

Now it’s all black

And feelings will conquer logic

And nature strikes back

Who knew she would be so wicked?

Ayria Lovely Day

I’ve been listening to this song for hours

And my head aches but that doesn’t stop me

It keeps repeating and now my eyes burn

They have turned red

And I do this to myself

I should get out

But there is nowhere to go on a Tuesday night

This restless feeling

There is no cure for

So I wait

It’s a lovely day

To never feel this way again

And will I ever find

Someone who understands my mind?

I don’t think so

It’s just a sea of faces and vacant stares

And they will never be in this place again

I have your number

But I won’t call it

I fear rejection more than being alone

I’m almost nauseous

Maybe I’m dying?

Over dramatic, but that’s what happens

When you have too much time to think about the end

The lights look blurry now

And the cars pass by me on an energetic street

That I have no part of

It’s a lovely day

To never feel this way again

And will I ever find

Someone who understands my mind?

I don’t think so

It’s just a sea of faces and vacant stares

And they will never be in this place again

I will wait for you to find me

But I know you never will

I will seek to you to save me

But I know you never will

I will try to regain passion

But I’m faltering

I will try to overcome this

But I’m overwhelmed again

Lovely day

Feel this way

Lovely place

Never feel this way