Beth Crowley Come Alive

I am a wanderer

I never needed anyone

But you’ve stopped me in my tracks

And I like the way you scare me

So let’s leave the past behind

The future’s anybody’s guess

Just give me right now baby

I don’t want to keep my distance anymore

[Chorus:]

Because I come alive

In your arms, in your arms

You touch me and I

Fall apart, fall apart

Let the world melt away

Blur all the lines between love and the pain

Cause tonight is when I come alive

You are a blinding light

A darkness courses through my veins

And somehow you chose me

I refuse to let you down

So come here a little closer

I’ll love you past the breaking point

You’re what I never wanted

But now I have never wanted something more

[Chorus]

If good and evil do exist

And we’re on different sides of it

Take my hand and walk me through the fire

[Chorus]

Beth Crowley Gone

My greatest love is gone

He might as well have died

An impostor wears his face

One I barely recognize

And something burns inside of me

Anger eats me alive

But lock us both up in a cage

I’m the one who will survive

So are you happy now?

You got exactly what you wanted

You try to break me down

Destroy me piece by piece

But I have made a vow

I won’t live the life you made me choose

We’re players in a game that I don’t intend to lose

My greatest love is gone

You took him far away

He sits right next to me

But he’ll never be the same

You thief you found my weakness

And you went on the attack

But look over your shoulder

See my target on your back

So are you happy now?

You got exactly what you wanted

You try to break me down

Destroy me piece by piece

But I have made a vow

I won’t live the life you made me choose

We’re players in a game that I don’t intend to lose

Fight or flight

Was the decision ever mine?

It was never mine

So are you happy now?

You got exactly what you wanted

You try to break me down

Destroy me piece by piece

But I have made a vow

I won’t live the life you made me choose

We’re players in a game that I don’t intend to lose

We’re players in a game that I don’t intend to lose

Beth Crowley I Am Not Nothing

No one ever made me feel as small as you did

No one made me feel as cursed

I’d lie awake in bed just staring at the ceiling

Wondering if things would get worse

I was trapped under your thumb

Believing when you called it love

But I will forgive myself

And start to let it go

Accept that who you chose to be

Was out of my control

And though it might be hard

To begin again

I’ll write myself a brand new story

With a happy end

I survived

So tonight

I am taking back my life

And I’ll show you

That I am not nothing

I kept my head above the water

‘Til the moment when all the elements aligned

And I could fly away to heal my broken spirit

And leave my demons far behind

You always said that I was weak

But the bravest thing I did was leave

So I will forgive myself

And start to let it go

Accept that who you chose to be

Was out of my control

And though it might be hard

To begin again

I’ll write myself a brand new story

With a happy end

I survived

So tonight

I am taking back my life

And I’ll show you

That I am not nothing

Looking up at the sky

I think I see the start of a sunrise

And I will forgive myself

And start to let it go

Accept that who you chose to be

Was out of my control

And though it might be hard

To begin again

I’ll write myself a brand new story

With a happy end

I survived

So tonight

I am taking back my life

And I’ll show you

That I am not nothing

I’ll show you

That I am not nothing

Beth Crowley Porcelain Heart

I couldn’t help myself, watching your moonlight silhouette as we all sat fire side,

I was hanging on to every word you said, in that moment all I wanted was a chance to love you.

So I handed you my porcelain heart, breakable but not yet broken, harboring my words unspoken.

I handed you my porcelain heart, disregarding consequences, letting down all my defenses, to my porcelain heart

You came and stood by me, your crooked smile brighter than the stars.

And you pulled me to my feet whispering the summer time is ours, and I felt it as we melted into something wonderful

Oh we danced cause we were feeling young you looked at me like you couldn’t get enough

So I handed you my porcelain heart, breakable but not yet broken, harboring my words unspoken.

I handed you my porcelain heart, disregarding consequences, letting down all my defenses, to my porcelain heart

Oh we danced cause we were feeling young you looked at me like you couldn’t get enough

So I handed you my porcelain heart, breakable but not yet broken, harboring my words unspoken.

I handed you my porcelain heart, disregarding consequences, letting down all my defences, to my porcelain heart

Beth Crowley Here We Go Again

Here we go again

Our game of tug-o-war

For me it’s real now

I’m not playing anymore

You try to wear me down

With your pretty pretty words

Just when I think I’m done

I’m halfway out the door

You pull me in again

Promising to give me more

Yet I’m still surprised every time that I get hurt

I reach out to touch the flame

Cuz I refuse to think it burns

Retreat and lick my wounds

But of course I never learn

You’re a rocket to the moon

I’m stranded on the ground

Come back for what you lost

Let me show you, show you what I found

Here we go again

I lose myself in you

Your love defines me

In a way I didn’t want it to

If I keep holding on

You’re going to bend me til I break

I’m coming face to face

With what I’ve always known

That I am terrified

Of who I am when I’m alone

But now it’s time to choose

Which one of us I’m going to save

You could be

The greatest chance I’ll never take

You’ll always be

My worst and favorite mistake

Beth Crowley Eyes Wide Open

I was

Raised in the shadows so blinded

Lost until I chose to find out

The truth of what I really am

I learned

A power has always been in me

Biding its time but I’m ready

I’m giving the unknown a chance

But everything comes with a price

There’s a whole other world within my reach

(I’m still deny the borderline)

A whole other world now I can see

(It’s too late to change my mind)

I’m still running heart first

But with eyes wide open

I’m still running heart first

But with eyes wide open

You pulled

Me out of the smoke like a hunter

And one look from you made me want more

Than the trenches that I left behind

When I

Lost everything I heard your voice and

It cut its way into the poison

I felt your love bring me to life

I carved you out a piece of me

There’s a whole other world within my reach

(I’m still deny the borderline)

A whole other world now I can see

(It’s too late to change my mind)

I’m still running heart first

But with eyes wide open

I’m still running heart first

But with eyes wide open

I look in the mirror to see what it hides

But sometimes reflections are tricks of the light

And you never know what is lurking inside

Inside

There’s a whole other world within my reach

(I’m still deny the borderline)

A whole other world now I can see

(It’s too late to change my mind)

I’m still running heart first

But with eyes wide open

I’m still running heart first

But with eyes wide open

Beth Crowley Make Me Yours

Don’t say a word or I am going to lose my nerve

I guess your silence might be

More than I deserve

We’ve always had excuses

For why we couldn’t make it work

But I have to stop pretending

That being without you

Doesn’t hurt

This push and pull

Aren’t you tired of running

Making me feel like I’m the fool

And this back and forth

Is stopping tonight ’cause I’m standing here telling you

Make me yours

I’ve said too much but I have got to get this out

Don’t blame the timing

‘Cause the only time is now

And if we’re done we’ll go our separate ways

And say goodbye

But I think we’ll both have our regrets if we do not give this a try

This push and pull

Aren’t you tired of running

Making me feel like I’m the fool

And this back and forth

Is stopping tonight ’cause I’m standing here telling you

Make me yours

Put it all out on the line tonight

‘Cause I am going to make you mine tonight

Put it all out on the line tonight

‘Cause I am going to make you mine tonight

Put it all out on the line tonight

‘Cause I am going to make you mine tonight

Put it all out on the line tonight

‘Cause I am going to make you mine

I am going to make you mine

I am going to make you mine

This push and pull

Aren’t you tired of running

Making me feel like I’m the fool

And this back and forth

Is stopping tonight ’cause I’m standing here telling you

Make me yours

Beth Crowley How It Ends

There’s a darkness that plays behind your wicked smile

Aching sadness as you cradle me like I’m a child

This is madness

We’re descending into madness

And it chills me to the bone

Even when you’re gone I’m not alone

I’m never alone

I’m searching, desperate for a fracture in your shell

With every passing day it gets harder to tell

Where the demon stops and where you begin

But I promise you this isn’t how it ends

I am frightened as we tumble down the rabbit hole

My grip tightens, I’m clinging to your missing soul

You can fight them

Together we can fight them

Tell me you’re not too far gone

That I’m not a fool for holding on

I have to hold on

I’m searching, desperate for a fracture in your shell

With every passing day it gets harder to tell

Where the demon stops and where you begin

But I promise you this isn’t how it ends

Deep within your twisted truth

You’ve made yourself a home

But it’s a place where I can’t follow you

Don’t leave me on my own

I can’t do this on my own

I’m searching, desperate for a fracture in your shell

With every passing day it gets harder to tell

Where the demon stops and where you begin

But I promise you this isn’t how it ends

Beth Crowley Runaway Train

I saw the writing on the wall

In fact you painted me a picture

And I don’t know why I cared

Enough to mold myself to fit you

My heart is a runaway train

Speeds so fast that I can’t catch it

Is the pleasure worth the pain?

When did I become so reckless?

I’ve never been that good at love

I tell myself that I don’t need it

But I just can’t stay away

I want so badly to believe it

My heart is a runaway train

Speeds so fast that I can’t catch it

Is the pleasure worth the pain?

When did I become so reckless?

Another note in the middle of the night

Saying “I can’t stay but I promise you I tried

…You’re gonna be fine”

So I take your things and I shove them in a closet

Swear I’m done but I always break my promise

In case this one’s it

My heart is a runaway train

Speeds so fast that I can’t catch it

Is the pleasure worth the pain?

When did I become so reckless?

When did I become so reckless?

Beth Crowley Pretend It’s Home

Breathe it in

Let the fear consume you

Then force it out

Remember that it’s not true

The higher you climb

The farther you fall

But don’t be ashamed

Of wanting it all

Cause the view from the top

Is beautiful but fleeting

The world seems to stop

But looks can be deceiving

You’re surrounded

But you’ll always be alone

So pick a place, pretend it’s home

Take control

Be strong in your conviction

Embrace the pain

A dangerous addiction

Once you make a choice

There’s no turning back

Trust only yourself

When you’re under attack

Cause the view from the top

Is beautiful but fleeting

The world seems to stop

But looks can be deceiving

You’re surrounded

But you’ll always be alone

So pick a place, pretend it’s home

I’m a secret, I’m a lie

I’m the weakness I despise

I am selfish, I am brave

I’ll prove to you that I am not afraid

That I am not afraid

Cause the view from the top

Is beautiful but fleeting

The world seems to stop

But looks can be deceiving

You’re surrounded

But you’ll always be alone

So pick a place, pretend it’s home

So pick a place, pretend it’s home