Capsize American Failure

Living day and night in question, wondering where we went wrong. So until questions become answers, I’ll pour every word into every song. Straight out of my heart. I beg, take me back to the start. Why is it at the end of every night I fight falling asleep? How long will it be till me and dieing meet? Remember the nights when we sat together? Got lost in thoughts of tomorrow. Tomorrow and forever. Well, nothing ever happens like I plan. Now I stand alone, with an empty hand. Nothing ever happens like it should, We could have held on, well I thought we could. Rewind back everything. Forget your hopes and dreams. I am, the society is, an American failure. Help me figure this out. Will I make it through one more night? Help me figure this out. How will I make it through this life? My fucking life, has gone stale. We were all destined to fail.

Capsize Complacent

Three minutes left, the clock clicks toward your final breath

Now what’s on the line is what you will say for the thousandth time

Close your eyes and wait patiently. Recall back to apathy

Love wilts and the flower dies. Forever never had a place in me

You wanted something, something for nothing

Would life be good enough to set you free?

You wanted something, something for nothing

Would death be enough to let you sleep?

You wanted something, something for nothing

It won’t be getting easier

The light in me is fading dimmer

Was I good for this? Me and life seemed to never fit

Were my intentions considered in the way this played out?

Or am I just filling in another grave? Did I take enough to even the score?

Or did life just run its cycle on another number

You wanted something, something for nothing

Would life be good enough to set you free?

You wanted something, something for nothing

Would death be enough to let you sleep?

You wanted something, something for nothing

If you could see what I’ve seen you wouldn’t question me

Don’t question me. Don’t you fucking question me

Capsize Endless Emptiness

I will no longer set myself on fire

Just to see your eyes light up.

If it’s gone, I’m gone. If it’s dead, I’m dead.

So say it straight and don’t you fucking pretend.

I thought it would play out fine, but I’m still empty as ever.

And I’ve seen every sign, but I’m still searching for more.

Replay it over and over, seems I took the long road home.

It’s 3AM, you’re fast asleep and I’m still losing it.

Fucked myself again, another fresh start torn apart.

So far from stable, I have no grip on this situation.

‘Cause I’m scared to know what it’s like to stay in one place.

Take me out of this mess I’ve made,

Have your choice at a gun or a blade,

But I can’t do this any longer.

I object to your rejection,

Tell me who the fuck do you see in that reflection?

I can’t explain how I got here,

But I’m ready to face the mirror

And come to terms with what I fear.

I keep telling myself I don’t want to be here anymore.

Why am I scared to death of any sort of constant?

So are the suicidal thoughts just a way to cope with the fact

That my reality is I’m dependent on your company?

Just wanted someone to talk to. Just wanted someone to listen.

Decided the fighting wasn’t worth my time.

But it’s hard to break this cycle when it’s all I’ve ever known.

I close my eyes and imagine the world without me.

Capsize Crumbling

So much lost time, so many wasted years.

Searching for better things but there’s nothing to be found here.

And everybody questions why they can’t find the time to smile.

In a world where everyone shops for status,

Happiness is lost in the isles.

And when your self worth is only your possessions

It won’t be long till all you own is your own depression.

Everyone need something, something to hold on to.

But all I’ve got is this music that no one understands.

Everyone has something, something to hold on to.

Well, all I’ve got I the music that no one understands.

Quick to judge, quick to turn away.

And so I’ll scream, since no one cares what I have to say.

Quick to judge, quick to turn away.

And so I’ll scream, since no one cares what I have to say.

The world around me is filled with nothing but a fucked up society.

I’ll tear past it all in hopes to find a better place for me.

I watched the rise and fall.

I watched it die.

I watched the rise and fall.

I watched it die.

I watched the rise and fall.

I watched it die.

Capsize Fade To Grey

Everything changed

I’m breathing after all, just waiting to wake up

But I’m still left shaking

Is this a dream or is this real

Still lost in question

Of what to feel

Tear down the walls

Or build them taller than ever

I’m still lost as fucking ever

Everyone I know is changing

My life is rearranging

Please take me far from this place

To never return

Building bridges over mental scars

Our lives could end tonight

Give me the comfort to still feel alive

Building bridges over mental scars

Our lives could end tonight

Give me the comfort to still feel alive

I’ll never feel alive

Catch these dreams of failure

and give warmth to my white knuckle fears

Tones of grey

Shade the days

I’m getting past the moats I’ve dug into my floor

Just wake me up, ’cause I can’t take this anymore

And everything I question

Just confuses me so much deeper

Oh, will the answers

Become clearer?

So we forever anchor our ankles,

Let us drown in love.

Capsize Cold Shoulder

I feel like I’m being watched

By a room of people

Taking bets on when I’ll break

And every ghost I’ve ever known

Still lingers in the dark parts

Of the 3am hallways

Can’t trust the things I’m told

Anxious and checked out gets old

I’m ready to say goodbye just name the time and place

So keep all of your love

Cause I am undeserving

I like the way you say my name

But I love being lonely

“Cold shoulder”

“You do this all the time”

And “If you tweet before you text back one more time I’ll lose my mind”

Can’t trust the things I’m told

Anxious and checked out gets old

I’m ready to say goodbye just name the time and place

So keep all of your love

Cause I am undeserving

I like the way you say my name

But I love being lonely

So keep all of your love

Cause I am undeserving

I like the way you say my name

But I love being lonely

I love- I love- I l-l-l-love

I’m ready to say goodbye

(Say goodbye!)

I’m ready to say goodbye

(Say goodbye!)

I’m ready to say goodbye

(Say goodbye!)

I’m ready to say goodbye

(Say goodbye!)

Cold shoulder

Cold shoulder

Cold shoulder

So keep all of your love

Cause I am undeserving

I like the way you say my name

But I love being lonely

So keep all of your love

Cause I am undeserving

I like the way you say my name

But I love being lonely

Capsize Help And Heartache

Everyday I tried to help.

I saw hope they said you couldn’t.

You turned away, ignoring me.

Now you’re thinking thoughts you shouldn’t anymore.

What am I here for? It’s not for me.

Why the fuck can’t you see?

Why the fuck can’t you see?

Everyday shit got worse.

Losing friends, they dropped you first.

You asked for my help but wouldn’t listen,

Turned your back on all the advice given.

And it’s all just a slap in the face.

I hope this song makes your heart race.

I hope this song makes your heart race.

Forget I said anything.

Your life, your way.

All you ever say.

Your life, your way?

Well now you’re living far from your dreams.

Far from your dreams.

This is me letting you go.

Forget I said anything.

This is you

Living far from your dreams.

Capsize Face First

I failed myself

Again today

Liar, liar

It’s always been that way

I fell face first

while I was over thinking

Cloud my mind again

Block it all away

Insecure and undeserving

Of all the love

you were reserving

Negative and assuming

I’m numbing myself

just to keep quiet

I couldn’t commit

When it knew all along

it would end up like this

I won’t pretend

That I don’t want all my secrets back

My own reflection

won’t look me in the eyes

Cause it knows

who I could’ve been

But you killed him

you killed him

I tried to change for you

Faked a smile and attitude

I never wanted it to be like this

I never wanted to feel a fucking thing

I lost the key

to purposely

Keep everything locked away inside of me

Still question myself

Still hating myself

Still everything I deserve

Another blow to the head

Slapped in the face

by the things that you said

This curse burns infinite

Bound by the chains

anchored in my head

And so it begins

every single good thing will come to an end

Nothing ever lasts when every light in my path is burned out by my past

Capsize Favorite Secret

I see you’ve torn yourself apart again

Mayday: razor, razor blade

Oh, how my heart sinks

Faster and faster as the clock spins

You cross your fingers as your promise lingers

But you never ever think twice

Your word was bond, now it’s worth shit

Not that you ever even give a fuck

Lie to me, lie about me

I’ll be your favorite secret

Like when we fell in love and never told a soul

Lie to me, lie about me

I’ll be your favorite secret

Like when we fell in love and never told a soul

Wait stop, don’t go now

There’s no chance that I’m turning around

I don’t do well with these type of moments

And I’m even worse at slowing down

I am your favorite secret

I am your darkest demon

I am your greatest weakness

I am everything, everything you’re keeping inside

Lie to me, lie about me

I’ll be your favorite secret

Like when we fell in love and never told a soul

Lie to me, lie about me

I’ll be your favorite secret

Like when we fell in love and never told a soul

Lie to me, lie about me

Lie to me, lie to me, lie to me

Lie to me, lie about me

I’ll be your favorite secret

Like when we fell in love and never told a soul

Lie to me, lie about me

I’ll be your favorite secret

Like when we fell in love and never told a soul

Capsize Calming, Crippling

Burn. Please. Burn. That calming crippling

You can’t afford to hit that peak of rage again

So just take another hit

The only thing that’s calming me is fucking crippling

But I need that numbing to breathe

Another dollar down the drain, another problem paused for now

But what did it really solve? I don’t want my mind involved at all

I’m losing regard for myself. I’m losing track of all my thoughts

I needed something to erase the moment, something to carry me away

I don’t want to be stuck in this reality

I lie motionless, drifting in and out of the colorless walls closing in on me

I want to drift away and let my mind fade to black

Fall into nothingness, ’cause there’s nothing left

No chance to catch myself when I’m heart set on escaping

Never had a chance to catch myself

I don’t want to be stuck in this reality

I lie motionless, drifting in and out of the colorless walls closing in on me

Burn. Please. Burn. Breathe it out, sink and let it numb me