Deaf Havana Nelson’s County

Well my boy I think it’s safe to say

Those tired eyes have seen better days

And if you could get it together

And step away from the stale routine you hate

I know you can do better than this

So get out the rut you’re in

And even though it seems like a sensible thing

In my eyes you’re giving in.

Oh it’s in the way you move your feet

Like someone cursed these dead end streets

To make you work, reside and one day die

In the same town you spent most of your life

I know you can do better than this

So get out the rut you’re in

And even though it seems like a sensible thing

In my eyes you’re giving in.

Deaf Havana Waves

Coming of age, after you blacked out my eyes

I have no light in the house of day

it’s far too much to take after it’s come to this

I can’t just turn back the page anymore

I can’t just turn back the page anymore

and after everything that I have fought

and tried and died not to be caught

I’ve never felt so alone

just because you don’t know, you’re not letting go

but you still stop the beat in my chest

and it’s something that I could have guessed

but you still stop the beat in my chest

and I’ll be more than happy to take the rest

no longer will I see myself this way

there is no light in this house of day

I feel the sun, but I can’t find the warmth

I belong on the other side of this town

where I can feel loved, away from you

I have conscious, but I’ll see this night through

by morning I’ll have to never see you again

just because you don’t know, you’re not letting go

but you still stop the beat in my chest

and it’s something that I could have guessed

but you still stop the beat in my chest

and I’ll be more than happy to take the rest

as I climb my way back up your nails

as they clasp on to your dying finger

and I’ll come away, from everything

with your name on my arm like a trophy

just because you don’t know, you’re not letting go

you’re not letting go

and after all this guilt

Deaf Havana Happiness

I’ve been dragging out my love over 13 months right now

It’s been a year of not believing who I’ve found

I’ve been trying out this thing they call happiness for a while

But I never truly cleared my cluttered mind

Because I knew that you’d get sick of all the stupid things I did

And how I never think far enough ahead

‘Cause my drinking takes its toll on everybody around me, especially you

It’s like a degenerate disease

Because it eats away at everything

But mostly love

And the strength we build between us

And all the time it takes to build the trust right back up

Isn’t worth a single drop or glass or anything

And I don’t want anything

I’ve got a liver full of toxins and belly full of fire

And a tendency to lose myself for a while

‘Cause all the countless nights I spent cowering in bed

‘Cause I can’t fight the voice that rings inside my head

Because it eats away at everything

But mostly love

And strength we build between us

And all the time it takes to build the trust right back up

Isn’t worth a single drop or glass or anything

And I don’t want anything, but you

Because it eats away at everything

But mostly love

And the strength we build between us

And all the time it takes to build the trust right back up

Isn’t worth a single drop or glass or anything

I don’t want anything

Because it eats away at everything

But mostly love

And the strength we build between us

And all the time it takes to build the trust right back up

Isn’t worth a single drop or glass or anything

And I don’t want anything, but you

Deaf Havana L.O.V.E

As I recall, love

I held you in my gaze for just long enough

To know it’s not the time for conversation

Oh this is nothing worth the memory

Of a drunk and your just lonely enough here

I took a step back into the dirt and I’m not proud of myself

And it must be love

That holds me down so well

Cause the guilt that should be eating at my conscience isn’t there

I took a step back into the dirt I think I’m crying for help

I recall, love

Not a single word was said between the both of us

As I crept towards the door to let myself out

Oh I tried to wash away the filth

But the images were burning my mind

I took a step back into the dirt and I’m not proud of myself

And it must be love

That holds me down so well

Cause the guilt that should be eating at my conscience isn’t there

I took a step back into the dirt I think I’m crying for help

(Crying for help)

And it must be love

Must be love

Must be love

Ooh it must be love

I wake up in a sweat and think it over in my head

It’s not me no, it’s not me

I took a step back into the dirt and I’m not proud of myself

And it must be love

That holds me down so well

Cause the guilt that should be eating at my conscience isn’t there

I took a step back into the dirt I think I’m crying for help

Deaf Havana Times Change, Friends Leave And Life Doesn’t Stop For Anybody

You truly are your mother’s son

Raised on praise, doctors’ appointments and getting what you want

Your school years passed you by without a scratch

Your father’s pride, good intentions and your mother’s loving hands

Being young at heart became a sin, so you grew up and you gave in

Remember when you said, all you wanted was to be where we are today

I remember when you said that you’d be in this with us ‘til the very end.

Peacefully we watch you slip away

In the depths of your drugs and the mistress on whose mental state you’d prey

If she was the spark to ignite that flame, then we were the floods

When the fires came but she held the torches high got you that day

Remember when you said, all you wanted was to be where we are today

I remember when you said that you’d be in this with us ‘til the very end.

My dear old friend

Deaf Havana Tuesday People

Nothing like you wish you were,

Your name is the only thing you’re really sure of,

Sitting on the wrong side of 25.

You keep your problems buried oh so deep

Then wonder why you wake up crying,

At least the pain means you’re alive.

Cause it’s been months and you’ve had time

To face what you’ve been running from, running from

Yeah it’s been months and you can’t find

A reason why you’re holding on, holding on.

Before you went away you said you thought

You’d try your hand at being a writer,

After all could it really be

Worse than waking up on Tuesday mornings

to sign away your pride for money?

At least you’d have your dignity

Yet all the while your mind is drifting back

To all those nights when you were happy,

Or at least you thought you were.

But nothing here can take away the years you wasted

Thinking you weren’t lonely,

Or alone if you prefer

Cause it’s been months and you’ve had time

To face what you’ve been running from, running from

Yeah it’s been months and you can’t find

A reason why you’re holding on, holding on.

If all you wanted was somebody to hear you out,

To chase away the empty nights of fear and doubts.

Running away won’t answer any of your prayers,

But you’re praying, yeah you’re praying.

But who are you praying to?

Is it the God you stopped believing it when he abandoned you?

Cause it’s been months and you’ve had time

To face what you’ve been running from, running from

Yeah it’s been months and you can’t find

A reason why you’re holding on.

But you’re praying, yeah you’re praying.

But you’re praying, yeah you’re praying.

But you’re praying, yeah you’re praying.

But you’re praying, yeah you’re praying.

But you’re praying.

Deaf Havana Ashes, Ashes

I was getting sick of the traffic and all of the tickets I couldn’t pay

So I sold my car and took the bus back to the corner of Churchfield Way

Where I lost myself in the faces of people I swear I’d met before

Felt like my own feet were someone else’s, I couldn’t walk straight anymore

If we drive away to the place I love the most

When my lungs collapse and my heart turns black

I’ll give my ashes to the coast

I found myself in a fishbowl and I didn’t leave my house for a month

What’s the point in trying in conversation if you don’t have the strength to talk?

“But it’s alright” I said, “I’ll stay here, lie awake for days

Count the spiders on the ceiling, ’til my mind withers away”

And if we drive away to the place I love the most

When my lungs collapse and my heart turns black

I’ll give my ashes to the coast

And I hoped that I would see your face again,

And I hoped that you would be alright

And if I could find a leg to stand on, or something,

Maybe I could take control of my own life

And if I could find a leg to stand on, or something,

Maybe I could take control of my own life

And if we drive away to the place I love the most

When my lungs collapse and my heart turns black

I’ll give my ashes to the coast

Give my ashes to the coast

Give my ashes to the coast

Give my ashes to the coast

Give my ashes to the coast

Deaf Havana Mildred

Has it really been three years since we chose that name?

And sat in each other’s rooms with our guitars and dreams of fame.

We used to stay up and plan our lives to the sound of your worn LPs.

And drink through ’til the morning light against the backdrop of the sea.

It just seems, seems like we lost a friend

It feels like the end.

It feels like the end.

Now it just seems, seems like we lost a friend.

It feels like the end.

It feels like the end.

And now you’re away in the city, I’m still here by the sea

And you work in a relentless job, while you should still be free

Without the noose of maturity hung around your neck

There’s the weight of an old-age man in the sound of your every step.

It just seems, seems like we lost a friend

It feels like the end.

It feels like the end.

Now it just seems, seems like we lost a friend.

It feels like the end.

It feels like the end.

When I last stepped inside your house (inside your house)

We stayed up ’til the early hours (the early hours)

But you looked to me and said, ‘I can’t’ (said, ‘I can’t’)

‘We’re sudden strangers’, but I swore that I was still the same

It just seems, seems like we lost a friend

It feels like the end.

It feels like the end.

Now it just seems, seems like we lost a friend.

It feels like the end.

It feels like the end.

Deaf Havana Seattle

I miss my mother, the smell of rain

There’s a girl I love back home, she shares my pain

I just get so lonely, still I’m to blame

‘Cause the life that chose me doesn’t know my name

The signs I pass by, ‘did Jesus set you free?’

Just helped me realize what kind of country this must be

I made some friends in Arizona but I doubt they’d recognize my face

When the whisky leaves their veins and I’m just a memory they’d replace

Seattle seems so long ago and you’re so far away

I’ve forgotten where my home is and I’m still counting down the days

It’s raining back in London town, somewhere in my brain

Is a little piece of my tired mind, it’ll never be the same

Somedays I don’t feel like opening my eyes

Give me a makeshift backseat bed in this desert life

Nashville feels more like home to me and that’s alright

Broadway’s not the same in broad day light

Seattle seems so long ago and you’re so far away

I’ve forgotten where my home is and I’m still counting down the days

It’s raining back in London town, somewhere in my brain

Is a little piece of my tired mind, it’ll never be the same

Give me just a few more hours to gather up my thoughts into the corners of my mind, lift off again

‘Cause I’ve been drinking way too much, that don’t make a change, it’s just a way for me to numb these lonely days

Seattle seems so long ago and you’re so far away

I’ve forgotten where my home is and I’m still counting down the days

It’s raining back in London town, somewhere in my brain

Is a little piece of my tired mind, it’ll never be the same

Deaf Havana 3 Cheers For The Easy Life

It’s only twenty hours ahead

But I’d rather be at home instead

I’ll act as if I’m older, and wiser

And its not like i could ever lie to her

When she damn well knew it wasn’t true

With a face that’s turning a certain shade of blue

Ohh, you know I’ve spent so long saving you from tears

It’s gotten far too easy to fake that smile

Ohh, you know nothing can bring back these twenty years

It’s gotten far too easy to fake that smile

And we will love each other tonight

Now she’s forever dead and gone

But I’ll always be remembering her song

And her lungs can no longer hold her heavy heart

But one more smile would have been a good start

With a face that’s turning a certain shade of blue

Ohh, you know I’ve spent so long saving you from tears

It’s gotten far too easy to fake that smile

Ohh, you know nothing can bring back these twenty years

It’s gotten far too easy to fake that smile

And she still said, I’ll be forever whispering in your ear

Another gentle lie of this is not the sun

We all sat down and we all sang,

Whoa, and we’ll keep this alive until the day that we die

We all sat down and we all sang,

Whoa, and we’ll keep this alive until the day that we die

Ohh, you know I’ve spent so long saving you from tears

It’s gotten far too easy to fake that smile

Ohh, you know nothing can bring back these twenty years

It’s gotten far too easy to fake that smile

The day that we die