EDEN float

I can’t find you

But can’t fault you, ’cause I

Can get so caught up in my own head

You just float through, I can’t catch you

And I can understand, but can’t face the feeling

That I’m just another end

So when you coming home?

I could be what you need girl, if you want me to

You know what they say, bruh, that love gon’ come back to you

But I can float too, and I don’t ask for much from you

But maybe that’s too much, too soon

So I keep rolling through the blackout

No fires without some fallout

Made peace out of the pieces

Not, I can’t take it back, no, no

But I keep on track now up, and yeah, that’s all of it

I gave up my youth for this ’cause I wanted it, and…

If think that I need you then you’re out of your head

But I want you

So bring me down and drown me out

I’ll be waiting here when you’re ready

And I’ll lay me down, unfinished now

It hurts

So when you coming home?

I could be what you need girl, if you want me to

You know what they say, bruh, that love gon’ come back to you

Come back to you, come back to you

Oh, it’s always you, gon’ come back to you

Come back to you, gon’ come back to you, yeah

Come back to you

So bring me down and drown me out

I’ll be waiting here when you’re ready

And I’ll let me down, unfinished, yeah, yeah, oh

When you coming home?

I could be what you need girl, if you want me to, if you’ll let me

You know what they say, bruh, that love gon’ come back to you

EDEN lost//found

I think I lost myself out

Somewhere in between

Finding out who I am

Confusing that with what I dream

And it feels like everyone’s done waiting

So what am I supposed to do?

When I can feel these bridges breaking

And I’m drifting further from you, from you

But oh, let it go

‘Cause I found God

And he said, “Plans change a lot”

And, so if I can help my luck

Then things won’t go the way they’re going

And I won’t lose hope, and I won’t lose courage

And won’t fade to gold

Or worse, to shadow

‘Cause if everyone is gone, I don’t wanna be here

I don’t wanna be left alone

EDEN Crazy In Love

I look and stare so deep in your eyes

I touching you more, more every time

When you leave I’m begging you not to go

Call your name two, three times in a row

It’s such a funny thing for me to try and explain

How I’m feeling and my pride is the one to blame

‘Cause I know I don’t understand

How your love can do what no one else can.

You got me looking so crazy right now

And your love’s got me looking so crazy

You got me looking so crazy right now

And your touch is got me looking so crazy right now.

You got me hoping you’ll page me right now and your kiss,

You got me hoping you’ll save me right now

Looking so crazy in love, you got me looking,

Got me looking so crazy in love

When I talk to my friends so quietly

“Who he think he is?” look at what you did to me

Tennis shoes don’t even need to buy a new dress,

If you ain’t there, there’s nobody else to impress.

It’s the way that you know what I thought I knew

It’s like the beat in my heart skips when I’m with you

But I still don’t understand

Just how your love can do what no one else can.

You got me looking so crazy right now

Your love’s got me looking so crazy

You got me looking so crazy right now

Your love’s got me looking so crazy right now

You got me hoping you’ll page me right now your kiss,

You got me hoping you’ll save me right now

Looking so crazy in love, you got me looking,

Got me looking so crazy in love.

So crazy

My baby

I’m not myself

Baby, I’m foolish

I don’t do this

I’m in pain myself

Baby, I don’t care

Love’s got the best of me

Baby, you making a fool of me

You got me strong and I don’t care who sees,

‘Cause, baby, you got me, you got me, you got me.

‘Cause, baby, you got me, you got me, you got me.

You got me looking so crazy right now

Your love, you got me looking so crazy right now

You got me looking so crazy right now

Your touch is got me looking so crazy right now

You got me hoping you’ll page me right now your kiss,

You got me hoping you’ll save me right now

Looking so crazy in love, you got me looking,

Got me looking so crazy in love.

EDEN Drugs

‘Cause I had the best of the worst sides

And I had these lungs

And I had too many flash fires

That I just let them burn

‘Til my chest is on fire

And my head just won’t die

I guess I’m lying ’cause I wanna

I guess I’m lying ’cause I don’t

‘Cause I just feel so tired

Like it’s move or slowly die

You say, you ain’t you when you’re like this,

This ain’t you and you know it

But ain’t that just the point?

You don’t know

How to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing?

But I’m still caught below

And I’ll never let you know

No, I can’t tell you nothing

‘Cause I’m a fucking mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

‘Cause I’m a fucking mess sometimes

And I’ll say what I don’t mean

Just ’cause I wanted

Or maybe I need it

Swear lying’s the only rush I need

‘Cause all I needed was some words to say

That all these feelings don’t mean shit to me

‘Cause it’s all just chemicals anyway, anyway

And I got way too many routes to take

To make this all just go away

And find another heart to break

So heartless with the words I say

Just saying what I’m supposed to say

‘Cause I had nothing for you

I can’t love when I can’t even love myself

Things I would rather be

Thoughts at the back of my head,

But I’m addicted to hurting

And I got these lungs

And I spent too many late nights

Just thinking a hole in the earth

‘Til the sky is on fire

And my head still won’t die

I guess I’m lying ’cause I want to

I guess I’m lying ’cause I don’t

‘Cause I just feel so tired

Like I need something to come alive

She said, “You ain’t you when you’re like this,

This ain’t you what you done?”

And I said, “That’s the point.”

You don’t know how to let go

Who said this must be all or nothing?

But I’m still caught below

And I’ll never let you know

No I can’t tell you nothing

‘Cause I’m a fucking mess sometimes

But still I could always be

Whatever you wanted

But not what you needed

Especially when you been needing me

‘Cause I’m a fucking mess inside

And I’ll say what I don’t mean

Just ’cause I wanted

Or maybe I need it

Swear lying’s the only rush I need

EDEN Wake Up

‘Cause we’ve been driving so long

I can’t remember how we got here

Or how we survived so long

I’m tryna run from our pride

‘Til you set fire to my atmosphere

And I remember how I spent the 23rd

Feeling six feet under

When I’m 30,000 feet in the air

Chasing that sundown

So far east I’m westbound

Feeling like the edge of this world is near

But you’ll feel better when you wake up

Swear to God I’ll make up

Everything and more when I get back someday

This is more than just a phase, love

Shooting stars all break up

And even though it seems like half the world away

Things will be better in America

Heard the streets are gold there

Maybe I could fly you out this place someday

Chasing dreams like I’m on Novocain

Screaming through your airways

Looking back I almost thought I heard you say

Stay, you’re not gonna leave me

This place is right where you need to be

And why your words gotta mean so much to them

And they mean nothing to me

So stay, you’re not what you’re hearing

‘Cause I’ve been watching you changing

And who said you’re one in a million

Anyway?

‘Cause you see only what you want to

Your tunnel vision haunts you

And you can’t see what’s wrong

When you keep sleeping through the PM

Eyes wide open when you’re dreaming

You’re sleepwalking,

Just keep talking

And maybe you can talk your way out of this deep end

No “B” plan in your system

Just tell me what you’re thinking

I’m scared that you might fall

But you’re not

But you’re not

And you’ll feel better when you wake up

Taking off your makeup

Sun always seems to wash our fears away

And it’s always shining somewhere

I just gotta get there

And even though it seems like half the world away

Things are better in America

Heard the streets are gold there

Maybe I could fly you out this place someday

Chasing dreams like I’m on Novocain

Screaming through your airways

Looking back I almost thought I heard you say

“Stay, you’re not gonna leave me

This place is right where you need to be

And why your words gotta mean so much to them

When they mean nothing to me?

So stay, you’re not what you’re hearing

‘Cause I’ve been watching you changing

And who said you’re one in a million?”

You’re so much better than that

You’re so much better than that

You’re so much better than that

Stay, you’re not what you’re hearing

‘Cause I’ve been watching you changing

And who said you’re one in a million anyway?

And you’ll feel better when you wake up

Swear to God I’ll make up

Everything or more when I get back someday

Chasing dreams like I’m on Novocain

Screaming through your airways

Looking back I almost thought I heard you say

You’re so much better than that

EDEN Sex

And I said “What’s up?

What you been thinking?

‘Cause you been staring at that roof

So long, I swear it’s come alive.”

And she spoke nine words,

And now we’re sinking,

But I can’t find it in myself to want to lie

To keep this thing from going down

‘Cause that girl took my heart

And I ain’t want it back

No, I’m laying down my cards

‘Cause you said it meant nothing

And I should’ve kept my silence,

But I guess I’m too attached

To my own pride to let you know

That all these words meant nothing

And I’ve always been this heartless

And we were just having sex

No, I would never call it love

But, love

Oh no,

I think I’m catching feelings

And I don’t know,

If this is empathy I feel

Just hold on,

Remember why you said

This was the last time

Whoa, hey, yeah yeah yeah,

Whoa, so I guess it’s

Whoa, hey, yeah yeah yeah,

Whoa, let die to let live

And what’s good

When both choices I’ve got

Have us staring down the barrel

To the bullets I can’t stop

And so I stand off,

Like indecision’s Kevlar

‘Til this fear of feeling stops

And I’m done with you

No, I don’t know how to forget you

No, I don’t know how to forget you

No, I don’t know how to forget you

No, I don’t know how to forget you

‘Cause that girl took my heart,

And I ain’t want it back,

No, a bulletproof restart

Oh no,

I think I’m catching feelings

And I don’t know,

If this is empathy I feel

Just hold on,

Remember why you said

This was the last time,

Whoa, hey, yeah yeah yeah,

Whoa, so I guess it’s

Whoa, hey, yeah yeah yeah,

Whoa, let die to let live

No, I don’t know how to forget you

No, I don’t know how to forget you

No, I don’t know how to forget you

No, I don’t know

How to forget you

EDEN icarus

So this is how I die now

Hands to the air

No, they can’t stop the sky falling down, down

Guess I thought that I’d feel good somehow

All you know is up is high and I am feeling like you ain’t going down, down

Disappearing through the silence

Screams fade and blur

Conversating with a smile, though

Life invisible

Guess I thought that I’d feel better now

Somehow

Anyhow

So now

Icarus

No, I can’t escape this fall

Falling in reverse

Falling in reverse

So how you gonna scream my name

When I gave all I got?

I’ve nothing left to give you

I’m so burnt out and lost

‘Cause it all just feels the same

And I got all I want

I had you where I wanted

I guess I don’t know

How to live with a good thing

And not break it into nothing

Self destruct just to feel, or so it goes

So tell me how you want me here now

Keep crying on the phone

Yeah, that’s all I seem to hear now

Keep lying through your teeth

Lie to me, lie with me now

(I’m halfway there, but it’s like, “Shit, I haven’t really been doing anything for the last year.” And I’ve been saying I’ve been doing a shit ton but like, in terms of… I don’t know.)

So tell me how you really feel now

Ain’t been asked that in a while

Yet you still hope that they’ll hear you out

Just keep at it, bro, these things always seem to fix themselves somehow

Suck it up, some would kill just to stand where you’re standing now

So how you gonna scream my name

When I gave all I got?

I’ve nothing left to give you

And I’m so burnt out and lost

‘Cause fuck it, it all feels the same

And I got all I want

I thought that I’d feel something

Guess I’ll never know

How to live with a good thing

Fucked my life up for nothing, nothing

‘Cause you don’t care if I’m still bleeding

You just scream until you hear my name

So this is how I die now

Hands to the air

No, they can’t stop the sky falling down, down

Guess I thought that I’d feel good somehow

Disappearing through the silence

Screams fade and blur

Conversating with a smile, though

Life invisible

Guess I thought that I’d feel better now

Somehow

Anyhow

So now

EDEN take care

Yeah, how could you be so careless?

I sweat this, I swear

I think I’m losing my voice, I took no time to take care

I smashed my phone, but honestly I feel relieved

You can’t reach me, now I can exhale on my own

What were you thinking? That night was a dream

At the top of your lungs, I’ve heard you scream in your sleep

And I know you don’t mean a thing, I just get lost in translation

So, how much is enough gonna take? Yeah

I got a number for you

I call it breaking, yeah

I got a lover, baby

Don’t need what you’re giving me

More than what you think

Oh, love ain’t love if it ain’t rough

But you’re screaming

I’ve said it all

I thought maybe you’d believe me ’cause I don’t

These days it’s a cliché, I know

I have no words, no words

And if I could forget you, you know I would leave

I can’t help myself from feeling all this is wasted on me

And I love the rain (love!), but I can’t live in a storm

I got more to go

Still learning to grow

What were you thinking? That night was a dream

At the top of your lungs, I hear you screaming, no sleep

And I know you don’t mean a thing, I just get lost in translation

So, how much is enough gonna take?

I got a lifetime to wait

Seconds can’t bury me

EDEN gold

Don’t know how well this is gonna be

But, the basic idea is

Freefall for now

Desert air won’t drown you out

And for a second I thought the world was ending

And I couldn’t breathe in

Yeah, and so this isn’t your time

Yeah, been chasing kairos with those scapegoat eyes

Can’t you realize?

Fuck the summertime, it’s you

So scared of overgrowing youth

When it’s not done with you

And everybody gon’ run, run

Everybody gon’ run, run

And you can call it what you want

But I call it moving on

And I’m so done with singing words I don’t believe in no more

So what are you rushing for?

Who said it’s now or never?

I think you’re taking on the wrong advice

But it’s alright if these are your worst times

You know you’re good, you’re good

And if you want you can breathe on your own

This isn’t what I thought but it’s beautiful

Make peace with your mistakes and they’ll turn gold

Weightless, I let go

And everybody gon’ run, run

Everybody gon’ run, run

And you can call it what you want

But I call it moving on

And I’m so done with singing words I don’t believe in no more

No more, call it what you want

Call it what you want but I call it growing up and I’m done

EDEN Soul

And it breaks my heart, to be so left behind at the start,

when I always thought I’d be so much farther,

so far away from here

Souls on fire

But it feels so heavy, but it feels so heavy,

so I’m HK bound but it means nothing to me ’cause I feel at home

When there’s no one left to scream at all I’ve done,

But I’ve learned to let fear go.

‘Cause all I’ve done, ’cause all I’ve done, ’cause all I’ve done is give the world mine