Jay Brannan Christmas Really Sucks

It’s cold, but light outside

another sleepless night

and Santa never made it

it’s just another day

at least it feels that way

it’s Christmas, and I hate it

the streets are empty

and so am I

to “Merry Christmas” I reply

don’t put your trust

in happily ever after

fall if you must

for simple things like laughter

you said you’d always be here

but then you had to go

well, Christmas really sucks this year

thought you should know

I’m craving pancakes

so much my stomach aches

but there is nothing open

you’re on the telephone

sounds like you’re not alone

it’s been so long since we’ve spoken

has your day been merry?

cuz mine’s been blue

hey, can I stay in love with you?

don’t put your trust

in happily ever after

fall if you must

for simple things like laughter

you said you’d always be here

but then you had to go

well, christmas really sucks this year

thought you should know

Jay Brannan Half-Boyfriend

I don’t know where we’re going

But I know we’ve gone too far and

I hope it isn’t showing

But I think I love you and

I can’t believe you’re leaving

Just when I let you in and

When you had me believing

I could feel again

I could give a million reasons

Why we should not be friends

Our moods change like the seasons

My mood ends your mood begins and

You’re a tease, you’re a cockblocker

You’re a loud mouth bitch, and a big talker,

But that’s okay.

You’ll grow up someday.

[CHORUS:]

You’re the pill I never wanted to take.

An anti-misanthrope

Mine was the heart I never thought you would break

My one hope was that I’d survive you

I’ve shown up for you

In ways that boy never would, but

I know you’ll go back to him and

Maybe you should, but

I hope you don’t go backwards

Cuz I’m going on ahead and

One day you’ll wish that you had

stuck with me instead

[CHORUS]

As I wander through Union Square

I remember when you followed me there

You were the stalker I kinda wanted to have

Being your half-boyfriend was only half bad

[CHORUS]

Jay Brannan Blowin’ In The Wind

How many roads must a man walk down

Before you call him a man?

And how many seas must the white dove sail

Before she sleeps in the sand?

And how many years must the cannonballs fly

Before they’re forever banned?

The answer, my friend, is blowin’ in the wind

The answer is blowin’ in the wind

And how many times can a man look up

Before he can see the sky?

And how many ears must one man have

Before he can hear people cry?

And how many deaths will it take ’til he knows that

Too many people have died?

The answer, my friend, is blowin’ in the wind

The answer is blowin’ in the wind

And how many years can a mountain exist

Before it falls to the sea?

And how many years must some people exist

Before they’re allowed to be free?

And how many times can a man turn his head

Pretending he just doesn’t see?

The answer, my friend, is blowin’ in the wind

The answer is blowin’ in the wind

Jay Brannan Everywhere There’s Statues

I woke up in a coma in someone else’s way

Choked on the aroma of a world in decay

Thought I heard laughing as my knees hit the ground

Saw nothing but shadows racing all around

Hey one of these shadows come rescue me

I need a little bit of darkness to protect me from the heat

It’s like looking for hay in a stack of hypodermics

Shooting up grey through the cracks in the yellow brick road

And everywhere there’s statues with their arms open wide

Surrounded by fences that you, that you can’t get inside

Sub-normal people do supernatural things

In a world full of demons with white feathered wings

I feel like I’m open hearted, but it’s a broken range we’re on

I know I’m not the only one asking where have all the cowboys gone

Can’t one of these cowboys come rescue me?

I need a little bit of rope n ride to keep me on my feet

It’s like looking for hay in a stack of hypodermics

Shooting up grey through the cracks in the yellow brick road

And everywhere there’s statues with their arms open wide

Surrounded by fences that you, that you can’t get inside

Face down on the hardwood floor

In one more empty corridor

I’m all alone in these halls

All is fair in love and war

If I can’t find an open door

Then I’ll start taking out walls

I’m face down on the hardwood floor

And not a soul with which to be

If this craving’s one to ignore

Then someone tell me what the fuck a soul is for

I’m looking for hay in a stack of hypodermics

Shooting up grey through the cracks in the yellow brick road

And everywhere there’s statues with their arms open wide

Surrounded by fences that you, that you can’t get inside

That you can’t get inside

That you can’t get inside

Jay Brannan Both Hands

I am walking

out in the rain

and I am listening to the low moan

of the dial tone again

and I am getting

nowhere with you

and I can’t let it go

and I can’t get through…

And the old woman behind the pink curtains

and the closed door

on the first floor

she’s listening through the air shaft

to see how long our swan song can last

And both hands

please use both hands

no don’t close your eyes

I am writing

graffiti on your body

I am drawing the story of

how hard we tried

Jay Brannan Drowning

It’s four A.M. again

Father, forgive me this sin

Uncomfortable in this life, yeah

I can’t put down this knife, yeah

I’m carving words in my arms, baby

Hey, scars are part of my charm, maybe

I need the touch of a hand

This isn’t what I had planned

[Chorus]

I need relief from this life

I wanna slip away into the night

Don’t wanna see the sun again

But can’t get swallowed up by this tragic whirlwind

I wish the ocean was warm

I feel like drowning

I’m losing my faith in me

I can’t remember the last time I felt free

From voices inside my head

When I taste liberation, they just feed me fear instead

You say I’m out of control

At least I still have a soul

No, I don’t need your advice

Some compassion would be nice

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]

I can’t take any more of your pills

They hold my head up

But still it feels so wrong

I can’t believe the price that I’ve paid

For this chemically-induced, perceivably ideal, take-it-with-a-glass-of-water day

[Chorus]

Jay Brannan Bowlegged & Starving

The stars are shining so bright

Wait-that’s just Manhattan’s light

It’s been 12 hours since I ate

I think I’m finally losing weight

Mixed up my armor with some knight

Walkin’ home wearing his white

I know what you’re gonna say

No one could love me this way

[CHORUS:]

I’m bowlegged and starving, but

Walkin’ home happy

Let this mark the moment

When I felt freedom ring

I’ve got my laptop for pleasure

And my guitar for pain

Love’s a buried treasure

But I don’t need love to feel this way

He said I could spend the night

I said thanks but that’s alright

You can paint your number on my face

But I’m not into sleeping at someone else’s place

[CHORUS]

When Brooklyn tossed a bone, it landed in my wishing well

Took the train for hours to this roach motel

Sometimes it’s worth it, sometimes it’s hot

Sometimes he loves me, sometimes he loves me not

[CHORUS]

Jay Brannan American Idol

You say good start

I say perfect ending

This world has no heart

And mine is beyond mending

Wiping down menus

Of food I can’t afford

If this is my destiny

Then why am I so bored?

[CHORUS:]

Am I suicidal,

Or am I hungry?

American Idol

Get the hell off my TV

Can’t write songs

As well as you

Can’t play guitar

The way that I want to

I can sense the future

In this Pennsylvania night

It is sealed for my protection

But if I can pick my poison,

I just might

[CHORUS]

Breaking up is hard to do

But waking up is harder

I had plans, and they fell through

Now I’m back to beg and barter

[CHORUS]

Jay Brannan Body’s Temple

Perfect body, perfect smile

your touch renders me servile, I love the

the way you speak to me, so sweet yet obscene

the way you smell of chlorine

I’m addicted, and you’d agree

I crave you endlessly

I feel useful on my knees

and I take comfort at your feet

They say your body’s a temple, well, boy were they right

this feels so simple, I could kiss you all night

and I could spend forever in the palm of your hand

but when the clock strikes twelve, oh, you’ll go home to another man

In my mind you found a fortress

one I’m happy to provide

no need to ask, just receive

believe it’s yours to take what thrills you inside

They say your body’s a temple, well, boy were they right

this feels so simple, I could kiss you all night

and I could spend forever in the palm of your hand

but when the clock strikes twelve, oh, you’ll go home to another man

They say your body’s a temple, well, boy were they right

this feels so simple, I could kiss you all night

and I could spend forever in the palm of your hand

but when the clock strikes twelve, oh, you’ll go home to another man

Jay Brannan At First Sight

You said you wanted me to be your girlfriend

That took about one week to come to an abrupt end

I know you hate me, I’m a perceptive guy

I’m also aware enough not to wonder why

You like the guy on your iPod, not the guy in your bed

After the fanmail came anthrax, now you wish I were dead

If I could force you to love me, I would

You’d teach me not to be psycho, I, I know you could

Give me one final chance, I’ll be good

Never believed in love at first sight, but now I think I might

You said physical chemistry between us was bad

Then why are you still responding to my craigslist ad

I know every step I took along the way was wrong

Now I’m spreading it all out and fingering this song

Your text messages were like no-calorie food for my soul

Beating off to forever with you is a fantasy that blows

If I could force you to love me I would

You’d teach me not to be psycho

I, I know you could

Give me one vital chance, I’ll be good

Never believed in love at first sight

But now I think I might

If I could force you to love me I would

You’d teach me not to be psycho

I, I know you could

Give me one vital chance, I’ll be good

Never believed in love at first sight

But now I think I might

Now I think I might

Now I think I might