Maria Mena Am I Supposed To Apologize

I wrote a song, a journal

Gave it to the world

Told the story

Of when I was just a girl

I sought understanding

Clarity in truth

By baring all the wounds

Inflicted on my youth

You criticized my choice

To stand up to my past

To give the pain a voice

So that it too could pass

But I felt brave

And filled with pride as I let go

Of bitterness that wouldn’t leave or let me grow

But I will spend a lifetime

Trying to understand

Why someone sharing my bloodline

Would not lend me their hand

Am I supposed to apologize?

Am I supposed to apologize?

Am I supposed to apologize?

Am I supposed to apologize?

I loved her more than myself

But she made me choose

Between her and my father

And so I refused

I fled her house and wrath

Eleven years of age

Followed the crooked path

That led me to a stage

The curtains opened up

My heart followed the lead

The music wouldn’t stop

And I could finally breathe

But I will spend a lifetime

Trying to understand

Why someone sharing my bloodline

Would not lend me their hand

Am I supposed to apologize?

Am I supposed to apologize?

Am I supposed to apologize?

Am I supposed to apologize?

Maria Mena Nevermind Me

What is the game we’re playing?

should I stick around for more?

Snap your fingers I’ll coming running

Leave again when you’re bored

with me

I’ll make it easy

Nevermind me, nevermind me

I’ll just cast shadows on your walls

Nevermind me, nevermind me

My God I feel so small

Nevermind me, nevermind me

I’ll just cast shadows on your walls

Nevermind me, nevermind me

I’ll just let myself out.

This facade that I’m stuck with

has got me wondering

Just tell me how you want me

and I’ll be naked stumbling

just to get a reaction, any signs of love

Nevermind me, nevermind me

I’ll just cast shadows on your walls

Nevermind me, nevermind me

My God I feel so small

Nevermind me, nevermind me

I’ll just cast shadows on your walls

Nevermind me, nevermind me

I’ll just let myself out.

Bottle up your smile

Pour it in a cup

I’ll be on my way

once I’ve sobered up

Maria Mena You Hurt The Ones You Love

How can you expect more of me?

I come from chaos

Brought up in tragedy

How you live depends on how you perceive life

I’m a glass-half-empty-girl.

But I don’t believe that

I don’t believe that

You hurt the ones you love

You live by example, I’m confused

I thought love huts I thought love leaves bruises

But there you go challenging those who told me

There’s a thorn on every rose

But I don’t believe that

I don’t believe that

You hurt the ones you love.

Maria Mena My Heart Still Beats

Nobody said it was gonna be easy

But when I forgive there are no strings attached

Was not gonna bring up your flaws in an argument

Not gonna rest on a counter-attack

When you first revealed your betrayal

My first reaction was “how dare you rob me of my trust”

But not even this would be able to shake

Our foundation ‘cause it was created by us

I can still see you

Front row point of view

We spent our entire relationship fighting each other

Our goals were exactly the same

I put you through hell by demanding apologies

Even though I was the one causing pain

With your little mishap the ball was in my court

To prove I could be the stronger one of us

By taking over the role you so elegantly played

Those years when I needed a rock

I can still see you

Front row point of view

It hurts, but I’m not about to give you up

Though broken, my heart still beats, it will not stop, stop.

[x5]

Maria Mena Homeless

What is in this wine?

the more I drink the more I wander off

into a stranger’s eyes

I like the way that they reflect my thoughts

what is in this air?

it feels like feathery dust everywhere

and as I breathe it in

I breathe the masculine scent of his skin

and I feel homeless

your comfortable caress

has triggered unfamiliar restlessness

you and I are we

I feel I’ve lost my individuality

you’re watching me rebel

believing stories only hearts can tell

but when is it enough?

when do I call my feelings on their bluff

and I feel homeless

and I remember us now

but I forgot what we felt like

somewhere along the way

Maria Mena A Few Small Bruises

Out here on the ledge

I’m not far away from stepping off

I finally picked out my cloud

It’s the one over there surrounded by all that air

You reached out your hand

And said “I understand”

So why not come down?

Well except for a few small bruises, cuts and scars I’m fine

Oh except for a few small bruises, cuts and scars I’m fine

Thank you for asking!

I’m so glad we had this moment here alone

I know they think I’m crazy

But everything I am, is everything I was taught to be

Except…

As you read my words out loud

Make me sound genius

Make me sound special

And mabye I’ll come down…

Maria Mena Habits

I am a creature of habit

And I move in circles around you

I will admit there’s a pattern

One I created myself

None of my lovers dared leave me

I grew impatient and stale

Didn’t look back once I’d left them

Cause I always expected to fail

But this time it’s different

The rules don’t apply

But I need some distance to step out of line

So grant me this wish and meet me back here in a year

If we still exist, I can let go of my fear

Fear of normalcy

Fear of the solid walls of our future and let go of my past

I must be crazy to want this

Cause you are the girl of my dreams

But I’m prone to ruin the good things

Cautious ’round balance it seems

But with you it’s different

The rules don’t apply

But I need some distance to step out of line

So grant me this wish and meet me back here in a year

If we still exist, I can let go of my fear

Fear of normalcy

Fear of the solid walls of our future and let go of my past

So grant me this wish and meet me back here in a year

If we still exist, I can let go of my fear

Fear of normalcy

Fear of the solid walls of our future and let go of my past

Maria Mena Interesting

If I had the chance to go back in time

I’d tell the younger me to breathe, cos you’ll be fine

Trust the path you’re on and dream

Write down the words on your mind

I once thought that a life lived in peace

Would lack any interesting aspects

That only suffering creates nuance(s)

But I am at my most inspired

In the arms of those who love me

Layers of life only we see

Shit just got interesting.

If I could say one thing and know that

The whole world was all ears I’d say

Why are you listening to me?

Follow your instincts, it’s easy

Once you’re honest with yourselves

You do not need any help.

Shit just got interesting.

Maria Mena Sleep To Dream

You have it all

The ceiling cracks

And you fly

But I fall again

Please say goodbye

Take your love out of me

And don’t ask me why

I’m not your friend

Trying to stand

But you bend me again

What’s up with that

Takes more then this for me to take off my hat

but these set of floors

Between you and me

I sleep to dream

I sleep to dream

but these set of floors

Between you and me

I sleep to dream

I sleep to dream

So you kissed me now

This face doesn’t seem so great after all

Please let me go

I need to hear myself think

I only hear the water flow

I’m not your friend

Trying to stand

But you bend me again

What’s up with that

Takes more then this for me

To take off my hat

but these set of floors

Between you and me

I sleep to dream

I sleep to dream

but these set of floors

Between you and me

I sleep to dream

I sleep to dream

but these set of floors

Between you and me

I sleep to dream

I sleep to dream

I’m not your friend

Trying to stand

But you bend me again

What’s up with that

Takes more then this

For me to take off my hat

Takes more then this

For me to take off my hat

Takes more then this

For me to take off my hat

but these set of floors

Between you and me

I sleep to dream

I sleep to dream

[x3]

Yea these set of floors

Between you and me…

Maria Mena Ugly

Look at us now, generation next

damaged somehow, but we try our best.

And we’re all the same, but that doesn’t make us

right.

And where do you turn?

Where do you sleep at night?

So now you think we’re ugly,

like I don’t have enough to worry about.

Why do you think I’m ugly?

Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me

now?

Look at us stare,

jealous of what they wear.

Dad gives you money, but he’s never there.

And we cry out for love, never get enough of

that.

And now you’re into drugs and all that “other”

stuff.

And now you think we’re ugly,

like I don’t have enough to worry about.

Why do you think I’m ugly?

Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me

now?

So now you think we’re ugly,

like I don’t have enough to worry about.

Why do you think I’m ugly?

Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me

now?

People have said to me

they think they’re better then me, and I agree,

yeah.

People changing me

telling me what to think and who to be.

No wonder why we’re confused…

are you me?

So now you think we’re ugly,

like I don’t have enough to worry about.

Why do you think I’m ugly?

Which magazine did ya read so you could judge me

now? [2x]

So now you think we’re ugly, ugly, ugly