Michael Malarkey To Be A Man

Lost in the backstreets of my mind

Looking for those familiar roads

But the seasons change up there

The trees fall and flowers grow

And it makes me feel like I just don’t know

I don’t recognize these highways now

Old signs unfamiliar to me

Trying to uncover those lessons learned like where is home

And it makes me feel like I just don’t know

I think slow

And don’t know which way the wind is blowing

And I don’t know which way I’ll be going

So I raise up my hand and I try to make a plan

But I don’t understand

Watching my thoughts flutter away

Like butterflies when the fall turns to grey

But I cannot make them stay, they migrate

They leave me cold

And it makes me feel like I just don’t know

Look in the mirror and avoid my gaze

‘Cause a stranger’s face is studying me

I can’t recollect his dreams

I trace him back about twelve years or so

And it just makes me feel like I just don’t know

I think slow

Well, I don’t know which way the wind is blowing

And I don’t know which way I’ll be going

So I raise up my hand and I try to make a plan

But I don’t understand what it takes to be a man

To be a man

To be a man

To be a man

To be a man

To be a man

To be a man

To be a man

So I raise up my hand and I try to make a plan

But I don’t understand what it takes to be a man

To be a man

To be a man

To be a man

Michael Malarkey My History Will Be The Death Of Me

I got the heart of the night on my sleeve

And I see in the dark when I can’t speak and I can’t breathe

I got the marks of a man under siege

And I follow my gut like a cut when I can’t see and I’m still here

It’s still me

I got the fight of the lion in me

And I clench my teeth when I can’t speak and I can’t breathe

Because there’s no words for this inability to see the

Decency in these people around me

Because I’m a bullfighter at the rodeo

I hear the young hearts breaking on the radio

And you got me good

It’s not my neighbourhood

And I’m a long, long way away from home

Baby, I’m gone, gone, spinning on out of this world

Gotta simmer down, down, baby down the rabbit hole

I got your number, honey bunny, and I’m ready to roll

I got your number, honey bunny, and I’m ready to roll

See, I get stuck from time to time, it seems

And when I’m down in that rut, well there’s no truth or clarity

And all I see is my inhumanity

But I still follow my dreams like a goddamn worker bee

My history will be the death of me

Still got a light, that kid keeps burning in me

And I try to fight but I’m overwhelmed by empathy

I got it bad, this ambivalence you see

And the devil in me keeps on hollering up

Because I’m a boneshaking daddy-o

I left my heartstrings broken on the patio

That shit is cold

I left my soul by the side of the road

Road blazing now I’m driving too slow

I’m on the run, run, sugarbun, dumber than some

Gotta cool it down, down, baby ’cause it burns like the sun

I got your picture in my wallet and that shit weighs a ton

I got your picture in my wallet and that shit weighs a ton

Baby, I’m gone, gone, spinning on out of this world

Gotta simmer down, down, baby, down the rabbit hole

What’s with the death wish? Let it slip, look at it snow

I got my mind on my honey and my honey is on my mind

I got my mind on my honey and my honey on my mind, on my mind, on my mind

I don’t mind, I don’t mind, I don’t mind

Michael Malarkey Hush Awhile

Hush awhile my baby

Don’t you say a word

I’ma tell you something you’ve never heard

Cool in the corner

Wishing for a fuck

No sugar in your coffee

Down on your luck

And I said please don’t go change on me

Please keep your love at ease

And I said please don’t go change on me

Please keep your love at ease

Summer-time is over

Silence is the game

I’ma give you something, an origami crane

Bad like a schoolboy, oh I’ve been misbehaving

How my eyes betray me

Am I still forgiven

And I said please don’t go change on me

Please keep your love at ease

And I said please don’t go change on me

Please keep your love at ease

Oh please baby don’t you change…

Keep your love at ease, baby…

And she said to me don’t you change either…

I said please don’t go change on me

Please keep your love at ease

And I said…

Michael Malarkey I Just Want You

Feel the undertow, tugging us down to the glorious unknown

And your mind is gentle like the trees

But the wine it makes us feel the need for something more

Or something lost

So we drive all night

Try to chase what’s disappeared

Well you’re wearing red and I’m dressed in black

I see you as you are and I still got your back

And we drive far and we drive fast

We try to race the morning but she comes at last

Well baby it’s the open road

But you want more

More to make you feel sane

And I just want you

As you are now

You say I’m always talking about time

And how it’s made by man

It’s all in our minds

And I wish you could see that

I really believe that

And I know that you want more

But I just want you

As you are now

Michael Malarkey Do You Remember Yesterday?

I keep my thoughts to myself

While you keep yourself to your thoughts

I keep rewinding my takes

They remind me of you

Do you remember yesterday?

I keep a memory of the time

While you keep the time for your memories

I can’t help but walk down those lanes

They remind me of you

Do you remember yesterday?

Someone set me free

Free from this love

So I can love again

Without their eyes on me

Oh let me be

Free from this love

So I can love again

Without their eyes on me

Oh let me be

Free

Leaving me

Was the best thing that you did

For yourself

But the worst thing for me

The deeper the need

For the only love I had

Who moved away

The harder to let it be

I fought my hardest to try

While you tried your hardest to fight

And when I looked down into your eyes

Your love was gone

Can you remember yesterday?

Cause for me

It’s not going away

Someone set me free

Free from this love

So I can love again

Without their eyes on me

Oh let me be

Free from this love

So I can love again

Without their eyes on me

Oh let me be

Free

Can you remember yesterday?

Can you remember yesterday?

Michael Malarkey Time’s Still Standing Still

Where did you sleep last night?

It was a cold, cold morning

Sunrise, stoking the coals

A couple of clowns still toking

And all the well-known skeletons

Are singing the same old requiems

Late in the evening in the bluest blue

Only way to paint two lovers

I’m shit out of luck but I’m stuck on you

One sad sappy fucker

And all the well-known chemicals

Are reeling me in now, letting go

And time’s still standing still

And I’m still sitting on the windowsill

No talking, big thinking

There was something here that’s faded away

I want to stop this scary feeling that these

These silhouettes had faces and names

But instead there’s a chorus of strangers like a

A deck of cards in the back of my brain

And I’m stuck here with this hollow idea that when

When some things break they can never change

They never change

Where did you sleep last night?

I can feel my shoulders shudder

Stars shine their slivers of time

Telling all their tales of wonder

And all the well-known skeletons

Are singing the same old requiems

And time’s still standing still

And I’m still sitting on the windowsill

No talking, big thinking

There was something here that’s faded away

I want to stop this scary feeling that these

These silhouettes had faces and names

But instead there’s a chorus of strangers like a

A deck of cards in the back of my brain

And I’m stuck here with this hollow idea that when

When some things break they can never change

They never change

They never change

Michael Malarkey Holes

Hmmmmmm…

In the old city now

All the clouds have turned brown

And the skyscrapers sway

And prepare to fall down

And in the evenings we sleepwalk these sidewalks alone

Return to our dim-lit rooms

And the drone of our bones

And these bodies we know

When we try to leave town

We just turn back around

And forget what we’re trying to leave anyhow

In the mornings we wake

To the birth of the light

Forgetting the night

And we go, and we work and we talk

And we laugh and pretend that we know

We’d rather be alone

So we crave the day

That we can’t escape

But the only way out of this place

Is too scary

So we stay

And these holes in our hearts

Are like diamonds to some

But to us, they’re just holes

And they’ll never go, no

And these holes in our hearts

Are like diamonds to some

But to us, they’re just holes

And they hurt

And they’ll never go, nooo

Hmmmmm…

If I could retrace the deeds

In my old trajectory

Then I’d be on my way out to see

But I tried so hard

To find something to believe

As they found the gaps in the holes

And they told me to solve

Where nothing would grow

When our minds fizzle out

When our skin has gone cold

When the oceans run red

When our stories unfold

Then we’ll disappear entirely

And nobody will know who we were at all

It’s the best way to fall

And return to this world as another

And wander this place like a stranger

Wondering why we’re here

So, we crave the day

That we can’t escape

But the only way out of this place

Is too scary

So we stay

And these holes in our hearts

Are like diamonds to some

But to us, they’re just holes

And they’ll never go, no

And these holes in our hearts

Are like diamonds to some

But to us, they’re just holes

And they hurt

And they’ll never go, nooo

These holes in our hearts

Are like diamonds to some

But to us, they’re just holes

And they’ll never go, no

These holes in our hearts

Are like diamonds to some

But to us, they’re just holes

And they hurt

And they’ll never go, nooo

Hmmmmm…

Michael Malarkey The Beauty Of Running Circles

I could buy you a drink

but I walk the line instead

Need to learn a trick or two

To keep my head from hanging down

Just another moment

In the afternoon

Just another evening

When the morning comes too soon

I’m the only one who’s tangled up in here

But I’ve grown to love the knots

The beauty of running circles is that it never seems to stop

It just connects the dots

I could bum you a smoke

But I quit a week ago

To you it seems like a joke

But for me that’s progress

Just another moment

In the afternoon

Just another evening

When the morning comes too soon

You seem to be the girl you were ten years ago

But a different shade of blue

And in a drink or two

Well the truth is

I’ve got a bone to pick with you

Love, love me do

I’ll be drinking too

I offer you to lose your head with me

I may fall losing

And I don’t play the blues my love

But I’ll sing it with you when we’re leaving

Just another moment

In the afternoon

Just another evening

When the morning comes too soon

I’m the only one who’s tangled up in here

But I’ve grown to love the knots

The beauty of running circles is that it never seems to stop

It just connects the dots

Until the feeling stops

It just connects the dots

Until the lights turn off

Michael Malarkey Mongrels

Feeling overgrown

And topsy turvy on the throne

You think you’ve won

By keeping me cornered

I may be skin and bone

And whatever soul still holds

Getting stoned

I’m loaded like a weapon tonight

I spin that wicked wheel

In the cemetery

Where one’s lit up where the other’s buried

In this everchanging dream

It’s way too much at stake

When you say you can relate

But think it’s strange

That I’m listening to country

And you hit me with that look

Like a sudden left hook

For the cannon blow

Wait up now, fuck that I’m walking

I spin that wicked wheel

In the cemetery

Where one’s lit up where the other’s buried

In this everchanging dream

Mongrels

Have another name

Mongrels

Are coming for me again

Mongrels

Have another name

Mongrels

Are coming for me again

So don’t let me out of your sight

Or I’ll be outside tonight

I spin that wicked wheel

In the cemetery

Where one’s lit up where the other’s buried

In this everchanging dream

You say I kiss different

When I’m back from the tour

And you don’t know

What we’re still doing this for

And I know you know I know that line

But I know you know I know we’re fine

But still

We’re getting loaded like a weapon tonight

I spin that wicked wheel

In the cemetery

Where one’s lit up where the other’s buried

In this everchanging dream

Mongrels

Have another name

Mongrels

Are coming for me again

Mongrels

Have another name

Mongrels

Are coming for me again

So don’t let me out of your sight

Or I’ll be outside

Don’t let me out of your sight

Or I’ll be outside

Tonight

Loaded like a weapon tonight

Loaded like a weapon tonight

Loaded like a weapon

Michael Malarkey Dancing In The Grey

Oh, how we pray upon

The signs and banners now

The times are still to find

In this cold, wildest room

Where I can call the shots

And no-one tells me what to do

The medication’s run out

And now I’ve gotta choose

To try to fill the void

Or soak it up in shit again

Like runaround Sue

No-one tells me what to do

‘Til I step outside

Say, ‘it’s all for you’

So I can mask the truth

And hide the blues

My teeth are grinding

And the mirror’s laughing and I

I wonder if there’s others in this bulletproof room

My eyes are boiled now

Nothing’s shocking and I

I wonder if there’s others in this bulletproof room

I face the wall of worry now

But I won’t let you fall lower than me

Or get higher than me

Or go faster than me

Or grow older than me

Or feel colder than me

Or get higher than me

Or go faster than me

Or grow older than me

Or feel colder than me

And I said

Give me a jetpack

I’m not looking down

And I said

Give me a jetpack, baby

I’m not looking down

Give me a jetpack

I’m not looking down

We’re spinning round in this room

No-one knows what’s going on

We’re dancing in the grey

And on a route to the moon

Masked by the overcast

Dancing in the grey

We’re spinning round in this room

No-one knows what’s going on

We’re dancing in the grey

And on a route to the moon

Masked by the overcast

Dancing in the grey in this place

In this place

Oh, how we pray upon

The signs and banners now

The times are still to find

In this cold, wildest room

Where I can call the shots

But I guess that’s nothing new

‘Til I step outside

Say, ‘it’s all for you’

So I can mask the truth

And hide the blues

So I step outside

I say, ‘it’s all a ruse’

And now I speak the truth

It’s all for you

And I said

Give me a jetpack

I’m not looking down

And I said

Give me a jetpack, baby

I’m not looking down

Give me a jetpack