Novelists L’appel Du Vide

I cannot explain this feeling I’m having

When I’m looking at these pictures

Yellowed by the sun

This weird emotion is sticking at my soul

It numbs me to the bones

These moments are battles I can’t win

Everything that I love is killing me

And these lies won’t save me any longer (can’t save me anymore)

I’ve destroyed one by one every beloved thing

Right before my own eyes

Slowly but surely

One day I’ll be part of the ghosts on your photographs

And you’ll forget about me when other ones come

You will replace one by one every memories

They will fall away and merge in the afterglow

I cannot explain this feeling I’m having

When I’m hearing these hearts singing

Burdened by their dirge

This weird emotion that’s echoing with my soul is all I ever feared

These moments are battles I can’t win

Everything that I love is killing me

And these lies won’t save me any longer (can’t save me anymore)

I’ve destroyed one by one every beloved thing

Right before my own eyes

Slowly but surely

I’ll never get used to this acrid venom

That’s shooting through my veins

I’ll never get used to this ice that stands beneath my skin

Novelists Heal The Wound

Teach me to face what’s lurking deep inside

I’m crashing down right before you

I feel broken, I feel downed

With my face against the ground

My heart is weighting me

My icy soul is afire

I’m running after bliss

‘Cause I don’t know what it tastes like

But I’m not blaming anyone, no

I’m way too much detached now

Insensitive to your words

And each time that I’m alone

My fucking conscience tells me:

“You’re feeling sick of trying

Of trying to bury the reason

Of trying to heal the wounds in time

You wanted to…

To learn to love this feeling

That’s raging in your soul.”

Teach me to face what lurks within my heart

I’m crashing down right before you

I’m always hiding behind this smile

The smile on my face

So no one’s gotta ask me if everythings okay

Just read between the lines

I’m wishing that you can see

My sky ain’t bluer than yours

I’m way too much detached now

I think I’m too far gone

‘Cause each time I’m feeling lost

My fucking conscience tells me:

“You’re feeling sick of trying

Of trying to bury the reason

Of trying to heal the wounds in time

You wanted to…

To learn to love this feeling

That’s raging in your soul.”

I’m feeling sick of trying

Of trying to bury the reason

I wanted to…

To learn to love this feeling that’s raging in my soul

I’ve learned to love the thunder, until the sun comes back

I’ve learned to love this rumble that haunts my mind

It’s never ever easy

But I hold onto these lines

I’ve learned to love this black cloud that haunts my nights

Novelists Immedicable

We’ve got nothing to say

We’re just so pissed off, rotting and ephemeral

Litteraly dying on the pavement

But is this what we deserve?

Oh the blood in our veins was made for this

We’re living ’till the end and when the morning comes we’re screwed and sullen

‘Cause we’re all living in this god damn shit

And each day we’re digging deeper

To be sure that our soul will be fucking safe

We were feeling so safe

But we can’t rest away from the bustle of the outside

All I can see? the white of our eyes, and it’s empty

My soul is buried deep in the ground

We are apathetics, and we belong to this fucking dirt

(From the dust to the dust)

I think it’s time for you to figure this one out

We’re broken and ruthless

So what can get lost except the will of being expected?

I’m a being of solitude doomed to live

A pawn on my own chessboard

It feels like we’ve got no fucking pulse

And once more we’re done

You let us sink into this constant rejection. (rejection)

In this self made hell, all of this is vain

Can’t we just heal?

I won’t break my legs again to search what I got left

I can’t find what I have missed

I won’t brace my fucking heart again / again

We’re broken and ruthless

So what can get lost except the will of being expected

I’m a being of solitude doomed to live

A pawn on my own chessboard

I’ve lost your voice in the distance

Yet it’s back on the stage now

Sounds are flooding my mind, I just can’t close my eyes

I’m bleeding ’till I’m dry, we’re the scars of your

Your so called perfection

I’m lost in this gloom’s persistence

I’ve broken the mirror

And those scars on my skin remember me the worst

All I’ve wanted was to heal in time but now I’m trapped

Inside of my own chessboard

Novelists Voyager

I left behind me the comfort of a normal life

Traded it all for my sake

I never questioned my choice, or even felt that I should

It’s always crystal-clear

I spent more time in this room to write all this

Than with my family and all my friends

I traded my everything

To feel free to walk my own path

I won’t be the one who forget his dreams

I’ll make sure to remember them

I’ll take a glance at the Earth

When I’ll be on the roofs of the world

The dream will be mine

For now I wanna be the one who lead his life

I might have took the longest way to leave my dream

But every miles will bring me closer to it

I’ll build it all of my bare hands

Will follow the sun on its journey

I wanna tame this heart which is mine

Feel that I’m leading my life

I hold the key in my hands

I left behind me the comfort of a normal life

Traded it all for my sake (I never felt a regret)

I never questioned my choice, or even felt that I should

It’s always crystal-clear

These lines that I write are the mirror of my soul

Like a letter to this kid who played alone

Now… this kid do feel like a man

He bear the weight of his dreams

Stands just before your eyes

He found a meaning at his life

He wanna know…

He wanna know what this life can bring him

He wanna know where this road will lead

So take him away and show him places he’d never seen

I remember the promise that I have made to myself

The kid I was has grown up, but all his dreams stayed the same

The souvenirs of his words linger inside of my head

It’s like crystal-clear

This is us versus the fate

I wanna know…

I wanna know what this damn life can be

I wanna see where the road will lead

So take me away and show me these places I’ve never seen

I left behind me the comfort of a normal life

Traded it all for my sake

I

Novelists Muchos Touché

You wanna play the man, kid?

Aren’t you afraid to play with the fire?

So let’s play this game.

Gimme your best shot or you will get shot.

We’ve been like bros you and I…

Oh, I know, I’ve been too nice.

All this time you lied like you breathe.

Fuck.

You lie like you breathe.

There is a place for you in one of these body bags.

You better watch your back.

I’ll slit your throat with the dagger that you left in my back.

You bastard,

I curse your life.

I curse your life.

I’ll put you inside the trunk of an old Cadillac.

You’ll be found dead in a bag,

Next to a foxhole.

You’ll be the star of the newspapers main lines.

I swear to change your life in a fucking hell.

Novelists Joie De Vivre

It comes in like a cold wind

The spirit of the world we live in

I’m holding a wave

Go give it away ’cause…

Are we looking for the answers?

Or are we dropping to our knees and giving in?

I’m running again

Stop running away ’cause…

‘Cause I feel exiled inside of my head

Existing through this vivid dream

Say that I’ll feel the same (it’s not your time)

Say that I’ll feel the same

But it’s now or never

And I keep running away

(Existing through this vivid dream)

I keep running away (it’s not your time)

So I’m chasing the joie de vivre

Not really knowing how it works

I’m holding on a dream

Even if everything around me collapses

So turn and face your fears

Thoughts rise, your mind it clears

I feel it again, oh I feel it again

Because I thought I needed somewhere to run

Looking for home, like night for the setting sun

Oh I’m shining again, oh I’m shining again

Say that I’ll feel the same (it’s not your time)

Say that I’ll feel the same

But it’s now or never

And I keep running away

(Existing through this vivid dream)

I keep running away (it’s not your time)

Novelists Delusion

I always wonder if there’s something above our heads?

Drowning my eyes in the depths overlooking us

But I can’t wipe off the doubt it’s bringing in

Who needs a reason to escape from the gallows?

Cause all the light I’m bathing in is fake

I shall just keep it, shall keep it away from me

I forged myself on what I’ve been living not on what I was supposed to feel

Because my life has been made for me to live it alone (alone)

I just can’t give another part of myself

All I can get.. yes all I can get is a fucking missing piece instead / OH

Now my conscious can’t reach the surface

There’s nothing above us, no nothing above

Yet I’m left with my shoulders to hold on another dawn

Get me out of this mess that I’m in

I can’t find my place through the masses nor find a reason to search it

I tore my mind to shreds, beating my heart to death to find

Peace in here. there’s another part of my delusion

Cause my life has been made for me to live it alone

You’ll never give us anything

So what can be shared between us?

Because I got nothing to give

You should have known I got nothing to show you

No hope, no sorrow, I just won’t let you know

I always wonder if there’s something above our heads?

Here in this time, I’m not counting on the faith

But I can’t wipe off the doubt it’s bringing in

For I can’t see the walls when they collaspe on me

Cause all the light I’m bathing in is fake

I shall just keep it, shall keep it away from me

I forged myself on what I’ve been living

Not on what they were supposed to bring

I mean it’s hard to live just like there’s no meaning to it

Shit my throat is tied beneath this god damn truth

I’ve learned your fables, but to me, they’re nothing more but a fucking trend

Your stories only bring the grief, an outburst when the thunder screams

Life brought the worst, but now this is just nothing less but the end of this all

A false story grows to numb the pain, reassuring me to not awake the hatred

OH PLEASE

Get me out of this mess that I’m in

I can’t find my place through the masses nor find a reason to search it

I tore my mind to shreds, beating my heart to death to find

Peace in here. there’s another part of my delusion

I always wonder if there’s something above our heads?

Here in this time I’m not counting on the faith

Because we’re left with a rope upon our fucking neck

So get ready to live in vain

You know that I got nothing to show

No faith, no hope, no home, no sorrow

But I just, oh I just won’t let you know

Novelists Muchos Touché

You wanna play the man, kid?

Aren’t you afraid to play with the fire?

So let’s play this game.

Gimme your best shot or you will get shot.

We’ve been like bros you and I…

Oh, I know, I’ve been too nice.

All this time you lied like you breathe.

Fuck.

You lie like you breathe.

There is a place for you in one of these body bags.

You better watch your back.

I’ll slit your throat with the dagger that you left in my back.

You bastard,

I curse your life.

I curse your life.

I’ll put you inside the trunk of an old Cadillac.

You’ll be found dead in a bag,

Next to a foxhole.

You’ll be the star of the newspapers main lines.

I swear to change your life in a fucking hell.

Novelists Heartfelt

Those heartfelt feelings that I got

Are getting a hold of me

I gotta let them be

And this is why I need to tell you the things that I feel

How much it means to me

How much it counts to me

You were into my heart before it locked itself

You’re all I can save from the shallowness

You’re the key of my soul

But my soul is lost when love’s a door that we fear to leave unlocked

Even the worst we’ve lived could never change my mind

You’re bringing back the pulse in my veins

You’ve seen the the back of my mind

But now it’s hard to mean something

I found this fire burning into your breast

This love has never been much brighter than what I could guess

The things we’ve lacked could have changed us

For a better version of ourselves

No matter what they can say

Or the price we might have to pay for this

They can’t change the way that I feel

The way that I feel when you’re away

There is always a way to cross all the miles

That will pave our fate

We just can’t change

And the world can stop

I won’t give a fuck

Cause I’ve got something that counts

And I will never let it leave

They spit the venom, I gotta take it out

Love is a hushed bird you shouldn’t cast out

Well if it’s meaning a break, they shouldn’t have lied

Shouldn’t have spent a whole night riding a fat ass

I can’t feel a remorse, I can’t have time to find why you’re that addictive

‘Cause a sad heart cannot fake feelings

It’s not the first time that love is dead living

It makes me sick, cause all of the mistakes we’ve done

Were meant to make our path

Snakes will keep spitting

But we remain faithful to our beliefs

I’m so tired of these shits, no matter what

And how many times we’ve to rebuild on ruins

A structure that can hold us closely

No matter what they say

Or the price we might have to pay for this

They can’t change the way I feel, they can’t

Nor your place in my heart when you’re next to me

Even the worst we’ve lived could never change my mind

You’re bringing back the pulse in my veins

You’ve seen the back of my mind

But now it’s hard to mean something

I found this fire burning into your breast

This love has never been much brighter than what I could guess

The things we’ve lacked could have changed us

For a better version of ourselves

The winter has passed

I was hoping you’d hold on through those nights in the cold

You don’t know how much I’m hollow, how much I miss you

The summer is coming

I’m awaiting the day when I can finally take you home

‘Cause this time I’m gonna show you

How much I love you

Novelists The Lichtenberg Figure

I’m not the greatest writer

Oh, I’m not the greatest, no

I’m not perfect, not even novelist

This time you better listen up

Oh, life have barely changed

Twenty-two, still pissed

Plenty of shits in the backpack

And Nikes on my feet

Many pieces are missing since I came back home

I can’t deal with my own life

I’m incomplete

Another empty wreck, shit

I’m just the shell of a man which is absent

I’m wearing his skin but I’m partially vacant

What I have is far from being gold

But I write open-hearted, my balls in the inkwell

Fuck it, I’m done with swallowing bullshit

Since hitting it off has become an addiction

I needed more than these words going nowhere

To show you that my life is not such a poem

Some black clouds will get so much bigger

No matter how lucky I am

I’ve never learned how to live with the thunder

My heart is a lightning rod

And I’m walking under a thunderstorm

Mesmerized by the lights

With my eyes half shut

I do live through these lines

Writing this song just to say what I got to

I need much more than these words

Just to show you that it’s a struggle

To be able to believe in this life

I write with my heart open

Even if it can be so callous

Just listen, this heartbeat have so much to say

I just can’t keep it in

I just won’t keep it in

I’m not the greatest writer

And this isn’t the greatest song

I’m not perfect, not even novelist

I’m not saint, I’m not a fucking prophet

Fuck this, I’m just drifting

I keep moving pushed by the movement

I’m still trying to pull the strings of my fucking life

Oh, you can keep the pain

The fame, the money and the whores

Cause I’m a body-shaped shell in a sorry state

My friends, you better listen

This man you see now isn’t totally different

Along the road he thought he found himself

A fucking sense

At these goddamn feeling

I’m just the shell of a man which is absent

I’m wearing his skin but I’m partially vacant

What I have is far from being gold

But I write open-hearted, my balls in the inkwell

Fuck it, I’m done with swallowing bullshit

Since hitting it off has become an addiction

I needed more than these words going nowhere

To show you that my life is not such a poem

I’m just the shell of a man which is absent

I wear his skin but I’m partially vacant

My heart is a lightning rod

And I’m walking under a thunderstorm

Mesmerized by the light