The Airborne Toxic Event The Fifth Day

And I was alone

On the fifth day since you’ve gone

This broken glass; this early morn

I rub my eyes in the haze

I’m not sleeping anyway

I watch the sun rise up

In the city where I was born

I could call you now

Wouldn’t matter what I’d say

Words just aren’t enough

I hear our song; press repeat

I smell your perfume on the sheets

You always said, “Boy, you’re not so tough”

And only now can I say,

“No matter how I shake and shape

It’s these things that make you a man”

And frozen mind begins to thaw

You think, “My God, my God, my God

Where was it I began?”

“I wish you were,” is what I’d say

If you asked me in the light of day

But these nights are like a dream I can’t shake

And there’s your hair and there’s your head

And there’s your empty place on the bed

I wish I could scream myself awake

But I won’t go back to what I was

And I know now that you are lost

It’s your choices that make you a man

And frozen mind begins to thaw

You think, “My God, my God, my God

Where was it I began?”

The Airborne Toxic Event The Fall Of Rome

What ever happened to the fall of Rome?

What a strange thing to ask

When I was taking you home

As we walked alone through the parking lot

I said I don’t have much

You said I like what you got

And I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t picture you then

In your wedding dress

In the days I hoped we’d someday spend

In our Sunday best

We were light as a flame

Both batshit insane

We were lost

We were just the same

What ever happened to the fall of Rome?

You were a mystery to me

But the place felt like home

And there are no rules when you’re falling in love

You just take what you get and you hope its enough

And I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t picture you then

In your wedding dress

In the days I hoped we’d someday spend

In our Sunday best

We were wrong from the start

With our broken arms

You played your role

And I played my part

And the road was so long

I was never as strong

As the love you gave to me

And it all took its toll

You become so cold

You forget what you were born to be

What ever happened to the fall of Rome?

Those people all turned to ashes and stone

Its a trick of the mind when you think it won’t end

Its a contest with time

And time always wins

I saw a picture of you the other day

In your wedding dress

And wondered why I’d walked away

Like I had with the rest

The only thing that was worth saving

And I swear that I did my best

And sometimes at night

I dream of you now

In your wedding dress

And I hope it doesn’t seem somehow

Like I gave you less

I have nothing to show

From these years on the road

But these songs that I wrote you

The Airborne Toxic Event This Is London

This is London, the place where you’re a god or a disgrace

The whole wide world at your feet to see the look upon your face

And you watch the BBC and you think, “Well, what if that was me?”

Such a promising life to waste.

You told me, “Just be brave. Remember all the gifts you gave.

And how you felt like you were saved,

Like you were singing from beyond the grave.”

And you said you’d wait for me until the day I could sing on key

“There’s just something about your face.”

Then you’d call, I could feel your body fall down next to me,

And I wanted us to be fast asleep, closer than anything to me,

Like we were home again…

There was just no way to know what was real and what was show

A future unfolding before my eyes, and a past that I could not let go

And how the feeling is so deep

when you’re running down the London streets

Like there’s nowhere left to go.

Among the faceless dizzy whores, the unimaginable bores,

Evenings stumbling from the pub, mornings shivering on the floor

Then the careless way you say, “Yeah, we were just glad we got to play.”

When you’re empty to the core.

Then you’d call, I could feel your body fall down next to me,

And I wanted us to be fast asleep, closer than anything to me,

Like we were home again.

I’m so tired of the rain.

This is London, the place where you get lost without a trace

Among the beautiful remains of this shattered human race

All the words that go unsaid, all the sacrifices of the dead,

“We’ll fall quietly into the past or we’ll just burn the streets instead”

In the clamoring of the crowd, you think, “I’ll just stay quiet, instead.”

All the fallen dizzy angels crawling through the street,

The pleas of people weary on their feet,

And you’re half a world away from me,

As the clouds drown the light.

I wonder where you are tonight.

The Airborne Toxic Event Parson Redheads

Sometimes the people that you meet in your life can seem

Just like characters that populate some quiet childhood dream.

It’s so easy to get caught up in just one poetic line,

While the Parsons have their cross to bare,

I know I’ve got mine.

And it’s a quiet night in Silver Lake, all the people crowd this scene.

Well they look so much like cardboard cut-outs placed upon a screen,

And I feel this sinking feeling as Missy grabs my hand,

And we lose ourselves in the harmonies, the white-robed beauty of this band.

(Aaaahh Ooooohhh…)

And the singers all cry as she whispers in my ear,

and I stare down at the ground, holding tightly to my beer,

Do you feel the strain between us, yeah I know I feel it too,

And I wish I believed in anything as much as the Parson Redheads do.

I wish I believed in anything as much as the Parson Redheads do.

The Airborne Toxic Event Strangers

Every day at sunrise, I’ve got to

Empty my pockets, I’ve got

Four cups of coffee

And these empty sockets

And the dreams I held so tender loom

In the air around my bedroom

I think about the rising sun

And the day to come and I wonder

Where you went, where you went

Are you wide awake?

Did you read all the letters that I sent?

Are you fast asleep?

Did you know I keep your memory buried away so deep?

Till all the walls fall we’ll just keep being strangers

As the world rearranges

Every blade, every seed, every ounce of green

And the sunrise is a welcome thing

But I wish it was more welcoming

‘Cause this life has such an awful sting

And a price to pay for everything

And every day they say, just get away

They say, just get back up

They say, stand tough you’ve got to keep it up

You’ve got to learn to play rough

You’ve got to run through a field on a sunlit day

Laugh it off and sleep at night

But I don’t care, I just don’t care

‘Cause if you’re not here there’s no one to laugh at the jokes we share

Are you fast asleep?

Did you know I keep your memory buried away so deep?

Till all the walls fall we’ll just keep being strangers

As the world rearranges

Every blade, every seed, every ounce of green

And the sunrise is a welcome thing

But I wish it was more welcoming

‘Cause this life has such an awful sting

And a price to pay for everything

I saw you last night in the cell where I sleep

And your shyness was such a surprise

And you said, I hold you in me like a secret I keep

And the truth of that moment defies all that we know

Where we go

So I think till all the walls fall,

I’ll just keep getting stranger

The world will rearrange her

Into something just as beautiful

I know that I won’t know you then

But I see no reason to pretend

‘Cause I love you now and I’ll love you then

And the sun will shine on everything

Till all the walls fall,

We’ll just keep being strangers

And the world will rearrange us

Into things we never planned to be

As the sun rises around us

And continues to confound us

Its beauty will surround us

And share its life with everything

The Airborne Toxic Event April Is The Cruelest Month

We imagined ourselves

As cathedral bells

Ringing out through the moribund streets

Like shrill courtesans

Making fanciful plans

That we whispered while drifting to sleep

And I told you I’d stay

In every possible way

Though we both knew that that wasn’t true

You said “You would understand

If it was for something so grand

As this mirrored reflection of you”

And New York in October

Was never so sober

As the beatings on the windows in March

Trying so hard in vain

To stay out of the rain

Falling off our cathedral arch

You were Zelda, Isolde,

You were Audrey and Kate

You were Miss Cleopatra in heels

And then anonymously

You were April to me

Throwing rocks just to see how it feels

With those lines in your eyes

And that platinum crown

And that gaudy red rouge on your cheeks

You must’ve look so divine

To some neophyte trying

But you look like a common whore to me

And I liked you the best

When your a plain simple mess

Drinking wine from a big plastic cup

While the radio played

Some soft serenade

And we noticed the sun coming up

And the blue in your eyes

Looked like ice when you cried

You were always so cold when we touched

Happy birthday to you

I sure hope it’s untrue

Even though I don’t miss you that much

The Airborne Toxic Event All For A Woman

All of these grateful looks

All these grateful eyes

All these furious stares, these fretful sighs

Promising everything

To everyone

“We’ll be back soon,

You’re my favorite one”

“I’ll keep it quiet”

“I’ll hold you dear”

The whispering fills the ear

“Tell me you’ll stay,

We would have such fun”

And the lie you don’t need anyone

And the screams, the wails, and the calls

The headiness of the fall

Ten thousand miles from where we began

I fell asleep with a picture in hand

It was all for a woman

You say that you’re grateful for the time alone

Two years away, “No, I don’t miss home”

And someone asks you if you ever think of her

And you smile politely and you demure

But then all at once your head starts to swim

And you can feel her breath on your skin

You find that you stare at the same spot for days

She’s above you, below you in ways

And you’re shivering cold

Like you’re just ten years old

And she’s lying asleep in your bed

And you’re standing beside her

The light from inside her

Filling up the darkness in your head

It was all for a woman

And you’ve drowned in the teasing

You’ve forgotten the reason

The muse inspires the art

You’d give anything for her to say them once more

The words you believed at the start

Ten thousand miles from where it began

Falling asleep with her picture in hand

It was all… it was all

For the look in her eyes

For the promise and the lie of a woman

The Airborne Toxic Event Innocence

Well, I lost my innocence today

I could feel her in my bones

My bones, my bones, my bones

My blood, my blood, my blood, my blood

And I woke up, tired, scared, and sad

So drained, I felt so bad

Today, today, today

What’d you steal, you steal, you steal, you steal

Won’t you say, you say, you say, you say

What you feel, you feel, you feel, you feel

Which is nothing but hollow, thin as air

I could die, I just don’t care

And forget happiness, I’m fine

I’ll forget everything in time

I swear I didn’t know,

You know me, how I can’t let go

And we’re not gods, we’re just hacks

All that light follows the cracks

The scars, the siege that breaks

The ugliest scenes, the worst mistakes

And everywhere I see her face

Such a beautiful child, such an awful waste

And there’s no innocence like hers

Just emptiness and nerves

And this light from the window of my car

She’ll never see it

Oh my God

I was so surprised, it blew up in my face

Lord, I lost my nerve, oh my God

Oh my God

Oh my

God

And I tear, I tear, so hard

And I tear, I tear, so hard

And I beg and scream, “I was wrong”

It’s over, she’s gone

The Airborne Toxic Event The Winning Side

Well I admit to the mistakes

At least privately in takes

Here’s another one

And I say “we’ll be okay”

But that’s a lie, man

I mean, hey,

We’re all dying.. young

It’s not a wish although it seems more like a terrifying dream

And I’m serious!

It’s either whiskey, or a bong, or a car crash, or a bomb

I’m serious!

Because the only thing I think

When I wake up in my bed

And my stomach churns,

As these pages turn,

Is the world burnin’

Is it only.. in my head?

On the screen on the tv

On the seat in front of me

With all the white noise ‘n the static

And the static ‘n the screams

This is war, this is death, this has really been a bet

On the winning side, the winning side,

The winning side, the winning side

And I’m sittin’ in the train

Over Brooklyn in the rain

All by myself

When a thought occurs to me..

That all these people wanna be

Just somewhere.. else

Like every day is just a lost bit

Arguing with your boss over a coffee break

Well the same is true for me, I mean one more indignity

And I’m going to.. break

Because the only thing I think

When he walks out on the screen

He says, “The sky falls

And your duty calls”, man,

It takes some balls to be

So obscene..

On the screen on the tv

On the seat in front of me

With all the white noise ‘n the static

And the static ‘n the screams

This is war, this in death, this has really been a bet

On the winning side, the winning side

The winning side, the winning side

The right side, the right side

Well they shipped you off

And your parents cried.

It all falls away so quietly

When you wake up to reality..

What Reality?

What’s reality? What’s reality? What’s reality?

IT’S A FUCKING BANG!!

I got a brother in Iraq

I got no way to get him back

Like all those people in the sands,

Buried in Afghanistan

I got a child in a crib

I got a father in a bib

I got no pills

I got no skills

I got no idea what I did

I just wonder every second

As they wheel the bastards by

Are we living?

Are we dreaming?

Are we winning?

Will we die

In a cloud of dust,

In a mushroom burst,

In a series of degredations first?

Or all alone in a hospital bed,

Wondering what we might of done instead.

With our lifetime..

A lifetime, a lifetime, a lifetime

A lifetime, a lifetime, a lifetime

A lifetime, a lifetime, a lifetime

Well we paid our dues,

And we did our time,

But please tell me exactly

What was our crime?

We’re not standing still

For this firing line

While you decide

Who lives who dies

I hope you Choke ..

On.. All.. Your.. Lies

The Airborne Toxic Event Wrong

All my young life

I’ve been trying to say

Just one thing right

And now

We’ve come to the day

You’re here in my arms

I don’t know what to say

I believe I was wrong

Probably most of my life

Or I’m just hearing it wrong

I’m just watching the fire light

I see the look in your eyes

Am I trying too hard?

Am I doing this right?

So I fall

I fall down to my knees

I’m not easy to soothe

I’m never easy to please

I believe I was wrong

Probably most of my life

Or I’m just hearing it wrong

I’m just watching the fire light

I don’t care if it’s right

I know your friends are opposed

But we’ve still got tonight

We’ll just keep our eyes closed

I believe I was wrong

Probably most of my life

Or I’m just hearing it wrong

I’m just watching the fire light

I don’t care if it’s right

I know your friends are opposed

But we’ve still got tonight

We’ll just keep our eyes closed