The Dangerous Summer Knives

Warm like blood

and tastes like wine,

I still feel You in here.

I still live inside Your eyes;

half the world is letting.

Back when I found Your arms

and my lonely cut up body,

I could not go on.

Everything was dead

or couldn’t fight.

Letters to You, I read,

in my awful sleep.

Skies turn gold,

I hear thunder creep,

and it cuts like knives.

And I will always return to You,

’cause in a way I belong to You.

Sorry if I don’t learn from my losses.

Everyone is dead;

and I can’t think of how we got in here.

Choked up and angry with my struggle.

I’m not the farthest from You.

I’m not the closest to Your honor.

You let me save myself.

You let the wind breathe

down my neck.

I regret and regret

’till there’s nothing left.

There were patterns.

There were shapes in the form

of a loss.

The Dangerous Summer Everyone Left

I’ve seen my words carved in the arms of a stranger as they let me know they watched their love die, but picked it up later when they found that rope. Some say you need to bleed to believe in hurt. Some say you have to scare to belong to her.

I’ll live alone and find my peace. I will slip into a coma; found somewhere north of Florida, but just south of Tennessee. ‘Cause the sun I finally reached it, give me reason to move on now, but there’s something in this heart I lost somehow.

I’ll set it down for you. I wouldn’t lie to you, now would I? I built that road from the beginning with my hands. When you decided to take it, what did you take from it? Was it worth the heart involved? The obstacles? The chemicals? I need to know what you’re trying to see.

Are they slipping though, all those messages I sent? I will cart across to every single city and their state. When you hardly have a heart, but you need it just to break. When I haven’t let my guard down, just give my time to think. Well, does it start to murmur? It just needs some time to breathe and in the light of murder, what if it carried me?

Just to find that water;
(I found the patterns release in me)

Can I find that water?

The Dangerous Summer Parachute

Take the reigns again. It was a pleasure to finally fall asleep without a stir out there with tons of burns. I get a lost sensation sent through my brain and hands. I know I better escape that part of me before I learn I can’t stand the counter turn. It’s still a nerve I can’t figure out.

I will wake up fine in a place I love by myself. Yeah, it took some time, but at least I’m clear out of hell. I feel it coming on.

I parachute alone. I’m a life that’s not worth saving. It’s apparent I won’t slow down yet. I take control of that feeling you don’t care to believe in. I’m blind, but I’m still leading. I’m finding modern healing is sold in the dark for some of us.

A strong sleep to sedatives; I fear I firmly hide from it all now to quell the burn. I won’t take the sound I heard. I’m going to find my own way to drown.

Hold my hands out like I’m starting to break . I’m seeing now what I’m doing to the people around me. I’m not supposed to care this much. I ask myself; yeah, who am I? Well, to anything, have I lost my health? I still harbor all my anger. I’ve been staring at the color in my veins, how they stay, how I still feel I’m tired, but awake. Somewhere out there there is someone thinking of what I haven’t gave them yet and feeling that I can’t in my disarray.

The Dangerous Summer Good Things

I’m safe, and who ever thought that was difficult?

My nerves start to feel so frayed.

I’m trying to turn things around, but instead

…I’ll say “Why do I feel so invisible?

Good things will come my way.”

I’m trying to turn things around, and I wait

‘Till the day when I stop making big mistakes

And the clouds, they roll out of this whole damn state

I believe in a place and I wanna go

Honesty will leave me feeling livable

Once I change.

Now that I’ve found some time, all the pain won’t bother me.

I’ve wanted to find what my head keeps filtering.

Irate, caught in the worst storm inside of me

Words start to feel misplaced.

You can change what you want with your pen.

I pray, as things start to feel much more possible.

This time, I’ll know what to say.

You can live how you want in these days.

When the way that you talk makes a history,

it’s important to know why you clench your teeth.

I’ll flee to a place that I wanna go

With a shift in the sound that is physical

Know I’ll change.

Now that I’ve found some time, all the pain won’t bother me.

I’ve wanted to find what my head keeps filtering

that hole in my life and how it stayed inside my limbs

with something caught up in my skin

And I’ve relied on that,

I change.

Now that I’ve found some time, all the pain won’t bother me.

I’ve wanted to find what my head keeps filtering

that hole in my life, I just want it to die,

it must have stayed inside of my limbs

with something caught up in my skin

The Dangerous Summer Valium

See through holes in your eyes

You wanted to die

The walls were getting heavier

I get high and talk to myself

The songs tend to help

I’m ready if you’re ready now to wake up again

In my arms again

In my arms again

Steal my heart again

Steal my heart again

Cut the cord in a sense

The wind makes it last

The weather’s always running our lives

So I’m trying to lift

The spirit of us

The complex of love

And where we come from

Suddenly waking up

In my arms again

In my arms again

Steal my heart again

Steal my heart again

And everything

Everything was a misstep

Riding on the waves of a new beginning

Here we are again

Here we are again

Bleeding from the thoughts of others

And counting on the space between

That’s when I’m waking up

In my arms again

In my arms again

Steal my heart again

Steal my heart again

Steal my heart again

Steal my heart again

The Dangerous Summer I’m So Pathetic

You long for rest

and count the awful days.

You speak like

nothings ever challenged you before.

Away with words,

you start to disagree.

You look like

something must’ve had at you before,

and I knew it would happen.

I tried to get the light.

It’s part of why i risk my head

in light of having more;

and heaven knows,

heaven knows me.

It’s in my work,

the cast is setting in.

I hang like no one’s ever

knocking at the door.

So love this sense,

and start your bothering.

I paint the colors that

enamored you before.

I’m so pathetic.

It knows me well enough

to understand my longing.

Those walls are closing in.

I will divide.

I’m ready.

The Dangerous Summer Catholic Girls

Even with the walls around me,

I’ll always miss the place where

I grew up.

It made us tough.

Simple love and wealthy families;

suicides of kids that died too young.

It broke us up.

And I remember laughing

when we caught up;

asking if that was still a part of me.

It’s still a part of me.

At night we used to drive

until we couldn’t.

All that we wanted

was some company,

and it was comforting.

We’ll all carry on into the world.

Innocence was hard to stand by,

even with those catholic girls we loved;

when they gave it up.

Life goes on.

But I remember laughing

when we caught up;

asking if that was still a part of me.

It’s still a part of me.

At night we used to drive

until we couldn’t.

All that we wanted

was some company,

and it was comforting.

Visit with the Virden family;

Step inside the house I first felt love.

I earned that cut.

And Loriann I know you’re out there

watching us continue to grow up.

You gave too much.

Your life goes on.

And I remember laughing

when we caught up;

asking if that was still a part of me.

It’s still a part of me.

At night we used to drive

until we couldn’t.

All that we wanted

was some company,

and it was comforting.

At night we used to drive

until we couldn’t.

All that we wanted

was some company.

The Dangerous Summer No One’s Gonna Need You More

I told you, “Life’s not fair.”

At least we know why

It’s not an easy air to find

I watched you sink right in

A bottle of wine

It must’ve seemed like I could die

And i was pining back

Turned out all the lights

And i could barely stand

Coloring the lines in with my proper hand

Lightly pushed away

I’ll hold that waiting hand for you

And drown all the words out

I couldn’t make it past those eyes

I think i feel like the wind

Sometimes I wish we’d try to begin

No one’s gonna need you more

No one’s gonna need you more

I’ve got mine

Moving ‘cross the country I lost

Track of time

Trying to make a name for myself

‘Cause every lonely heart

Can use an honest song

They can sing along to

You’re the home i’ve been dying to make

And the gold that God didn’t take

I’ll hold that waiting hand for you

And drown all the words out

Fine, I tried

But falling back to sin

Those nights you were keeping me in skin

No one’s gonna need you more

No one’s gonna need you more

I hope you listen

I need forgiveness

We both can live with at all

Either way I will reach you

Either way I was wrong

If not for this end

I’ll still be wishing

I was right there with you and all

Either way I am see through

Either way I’m not strong

I was staring out

To things I don’t want to face

I need back inside your veins

I’m dying out now