Token Necessary Evil

Jesus Christ, I can see in his eyes that he’s conniving

I’ll be defiant till achieving highness like Leonidas

I speak my mind and these demons are preaching silence

You’re marketed like the industry’s slut, and I’ma treat you like it

Get slapped up, kiss ass punk

Get snatched up for trying to distract us

Distract this! I’ll bury you, that’s established

You know the shit that make you think that your shit’s whack? Well, this that shit!

Ditch that shit, you’ll never create a legacy

You’re the lamest lame will ever be

They want me to name an enemy

But why would I end a career they ain’t even start yet? That’s a waste of energy

Pay attention; we create our pedigree

While they especially are praying desperately to cage us mentally

They eventually will taste the recipe of angry tendencies

So page the deputy

I’ll make sure they will credit me

When the sky falls down

When the clouds on the ground I’ll be in the studio making the sound to it

How could this be?

I’m the necessary evil when you’re telling all your people ’bout me

When the sky falls down

When the clouds on the ground I’ll be in the studio making the sound to it

How could this be?

I’m the necessary evil when you’re telling all your people ’bout me

And we don’t fuck around

You don’t actually burn calories when you go run your mouth, so why you sweating so hard?

I am the underground, they see the roots in me

They root for me, my routine is being the rude teen

Who’s he? “Token” I’m different than you chumps though

Do I brag about the money, clothes, drugs, hoes

While musically losing control?

Do I perform a 30 minute set while only using one flow? Fuck no!

That’s where I draw the line

They’re loving the intellectual homicide

Only really care about the dollar signs

Anyone who is gullible qualifies

They colonize all your minds and occupy each thought they find

Everybody looking like a puppet to me but everyone too stupid to see it; I’m not surprised, nah

I am the stop to this

I am the prophet not only intent on profiting

But still psycho to my psychologist

He said the only person fit to battle me is my second personality

So I bodied him

When the sky falls down

When the clouds on the ground I’ll be in the studio making the sound to it

How could this be?

I’m the necessary evil when you’re telling all your people ’bout me

When the sky falls down

When the clouds on the ground I’ll be in the studio making the sound to it

How could this be?

I’m the necessary evil when you’re telling all your people ’bout me

Token is a visionary in a fairly twisted, scary, scripted parody

And he carries emissaries fit to bury sissy fairies

In the very cemetery he’s getting married to the dictionary at

That’s how he kills canaries – Bla!

I kill a rival on arrival

Ever since I went viral they call me vile

And I don’t use the word faggot anymore cause critics twist my words into a spiral

Just tell them I’m feeling homo-cidal

I don’t know polite

Man I’m telling you rappers, you don’t need to keep up, you can look at me like a poltergeist

If you need a ghost to write

I’ll blow your mind

If I don’t, I’ll blow your mind

I ought to make them an ultimatum

They automate them and control what they say

That controls how you think, that’s controlling your day

That’s controlling your life

So cut your strings; I’ll show you the knife

We’re needed in this game; I don’t give a fuck if they like it

When the sky falls down

When the clouds on the ground I’ll be in the studio making the sound to it

How could this be?

I’m the necessary evil when you’re telling all your people ’bout me

When the sky falls down

When the clouds on the ground I’ll be in the studio making the sound to it

How could this be?

I’m the necessary evil when you’re telling all your people ’bout me

Token Happiness

Ripped jacket with the stains on the surface

He was the kid that everyone was happy they weren’t

Sitting alone invisible to every passing person

Wondering what it would feel like to have a purpose

He never had a childhood

Forced to parent his own parents like no child should

His father is a veteran drowning his memories with liquor

And his mother’s taking pills that doctors give her but they only make her sicker

With no sibling to walk through this stuff

No ends, no money, no friends, no buddies, he ain’t talking enough

He don’t put himself out there, he’s awkward too much

Well, who in his life would he learn confidence from?

And he sits behind me in class

One day I heard crying from the back

Finally I turned around and I asked

What was wrong

And the first time I heard his voice

He said “all I know is pain, if this is life, what’s the point?

Show me what happiness is…

His voice gloomy he looked through me he said

Show me where happinesses is

Desperateness on his face

I didn’t know what to say

I couldn’t think

Show me where happinesses is

He put his head down

And he didn’t make a sound

Show me where happinesses is

And I just froze

Like I don’t even know…

Perfect makeup even though she don’t need the extra touch

She was the girl that every other girl was jealous of

Silky hair, blue eyes, thin body with

Curves, but her new clothes only cover parts of it

She’s almost looked at like a goddess to all

Attracts every pair of eyes when she walks through the hall

But she’s likable too, she’s not the one to gossip

Evident when you talk to her, she ain’t ever pompous

Wealthy home filled with knowledge and newness

She was the youngest out of 3 book smart students

And her parents were so proud, pride was all around her

But I always noticed something was a little off about her

She sits in front of me in class

One day I noticed heavy make up on her wrist when she passed papers back

After class, I approached her and I asked about it

She said it don’t mean I have it if I’m around it

Show me where happiness is…

I looked into her eyes

I saw her for the first time

Show me where happiness is

I saw regret

She walked away in a sec

Her voice rang through my head

Show me where happiness is

I watched her walk away

She became another face

What she say?

Show me where happiness is

And I just froze

Like I don’t even know

I don’t know because I ask myself the same thing every single day

But every single answer has been vague

How come some appreciate the sun after the rain

While others just see the puddles as if nothing has changed?

And as I watch people living the life I couldn’t take, I wonder if they see a way out to mentally

And as I watch people who live the life I idolize, I wonder what they feel and what isn’t seen

As I watch my whole family take pills for depression I wonder what true happiness really means

I wonder if because I’m genetically predisposed to it, that is the reason I find myself feeling weak

Only sometimes, in and out

I guess it’s scarier when you don’t have a reason to be feeling down

Sometimes I just am

Sometimes I just feel no one will ever understand

Sometimes I wanna cry

Sometimes I want to crush my family’s so-called medication look in their eyes

And tell them they don’t need it as long we just have each other

But then sometimes I watch them suffer

I just wonder where happiness is

Show me where happiness is

Token #BadMemory

Cocky son of a semi-automatic (Whaddup)

Your body language is too loud (Shut the fuck up)

So funny would everyone would try and run up

I used to get laughed at for bein’ different

Now I get paid for it

That’s the come up I guess

They used to yell over me

Now they say it under they breath

You ain’t impressin’ me

You pressin’ your luck

Your luck is depressed

Some of my friends, come for success

Don’t even improve, suckers just said

They love me to death

I’ll see if that’s true (BLAT)

I’m seein’ right through you

Demeanin’ my new tunes

But streaming my You-Tube

I shake my head and they bet

They ain’t hearing my loose screws

Talkin’ to myself you’d think

I’m speakin’ on Bluetooth

You’ll pretend

No skills so you use your ego as your ornament

Such enormous heads that I can orbit them

Spend years lookin’ for that key to success

But when they find it they realize that there

Ain’t no fuckin’ door for them

This is my shit

Hop up in the cockpit

She might wanna hit the tropics

I might take her to Boston

Tell her baby, you know the rappers who act like the shit

And the ones who are the shit?

Well, you’ve met the hybrid

Goals, rap goals

Who are you? I don’t know

Come up like: you had been a friend to me!

You have to remember me!

My bad, #BadMemory

And I ain’t changed shit

They just tell me that the numbers change

The competition shall remain nameless

‘Cause I forget their fuckin’ names

God dang, they mad at my grind!

I laugh when they whine

Legends turn to Olympic runners

When they pass me the baton

I catch it with pride (yep)

I’m the prime example of making an example out of your prime

Ask about me

But when producers bring a track around me

Tell ’em I don’t conversate with people

Who wanna work with me then brag without me

‘Cause I ain’t satisfied until my dad livin’

Like he cashed a bounty

And my mom can’t keep track of house keys

’98 I came out of the box

Thinkin’ outside the box

Supply them with the tightest noose like “how can I not?”

I kill ’em, kill ’em and what not

Fuck a God amongst humans

I’m the deicide amongst gods

Must-watch

I spit ’till my tongue drops

And sprint ’till my lungs stop

And live ’till the guns [gunshot]

Rappers on pedestals now

I sit there and just watch

I convince ’em that they’re fly

Just so they jump off

That’shit that’s goals, rap goals

Who are you? I don’t know

Come up like you had been a friend to me

“You have to remember me!”

My bad, #BadMemory

And I ain’t changed shit

They just tell me that the numbers change

The competition shall remain nameless

‘Cause I forget their fuckin’ names

I stay at home and don’t leave until I innovate

And I come back the second I see ’em imitate

Everyone is competition

I ain’t got no friend to make

I ain’t spazzin’ enough ’till their passion and love

Disintegrate

I don’t live by the rules

Kids comin’ through to kill all of you

Bing bada boom

Bitch, none of you is exciting (nope)

I hate artists who complicate their lyrics

More than the ones who simplify it

Open your mind

I don’t see the grind. (nope)

You control your destiny

When I’m controlling the sky

(When the sky falls down)

Better hope you don’t die

I haven’t smoked in three years

And you blowin’ my high!

They say the grass is always greener on the other side

I’m ’bout to take a fence

I hope they don’t take offense

I’m about to change the world

Just to see the change in them

But wait ’till they approach me like “Ah shit, what was your name again?”

Goals, rap goals

Who are you? I don’t know

Come up like you had been a friend to me

“You have to remember me!”

My bad, #BadMemory

And I ain’t changed shit

They just tell me that the numbers change

The competition shall remain nameless

‘Cause I forget their fuckin’ names

Token Momma’s Favorite Chair

I sit in my home, butt naked, in my mommas favorite chair

With a pencil and a pad and a lot of hate to share

With no morals to go through

I just told Glass to produce something I can grab a shit talking pussy’s throat too

I fiend for anger, I seek the adrenaline more

I treat people like shit to get treated like shit so I can get mad and write another verse I won’t ever record

Then I get bored and trash ’em and I bet they’re still better than yours

What would I respect you for?

There ain’t no better metaphor to address you more than attention whore

Industry slut, getting plugged like an extension cord by the boss

Now my temper’s like the seven dwarfs, hella short

Never before have I spent my time preaching hate

But I’m a 17 year old who stays inside and eats all day

I ran out of topics so I punch myself ’til I got a bleeding face

Then write a verse to alleviate the freaking pain

Like yeah I got socked in the face, I’m going to the hospital

Really I go to the freezer for a chocolate popsicle

It’s impossible for me to be social again

All I talk about is rap, and they don’t give a shit

They ain’t amused

Please stop assuming in my grade, I’m cool

I’m a weirdo in all black who everyone hates at school

That’s why when you say you look up to me, I remain confused

The only folks I chill with do it cause they think I’mma be famous soon

And y’all wanna give me tips, this that, that this, market like this

I promise you’ll attract masses

Man that’s mad average

I say share my video or I’ll fuckin’ kill you, you can hashtag that shit

I start my day with no hesitation

I wake up, watch Sam and Cat, jack off

And I’m medicated to brainwash my generation

I’m 17 with the mentality of a pissed off 40 year old who never made it

My mom calls it ambition, my producer calls it stupid

My teacher calls it “sit the hell down and stop scaring the students”

My fans call it passion, my friends don’t know I have it likely

My psychologist calls it “can you please untie me?”

No! I told you, I wanna be staying in trouble

I’m just mad my engineer said that I ain’t really humble

All I did was rap about being the best, now it’s true

Then told him to bow down when I stepped out the booth

What the fuck’s the issue? You want a fucking tissue?

Cry about it while I fucking hit you

And stop asking to battle, just cause I’m a rapper doesn’t mean I love to diss you

I’ll just continue to punch and kick you like it’s rough jujitsu

When I throw a punch, I ain’t gonna miss you

You’ll end up running away, and I still won’t fuckin’ miss you

And ever since I released “Talk To You” teen girls begun to care for me

But they don’t know I’m just a 40 year old with a rare disease

Token Love Triangle

[Sample – Nadia Ali:]

This triangle has to untangle

Got to let it go

This triangle is too much to handle

Got to let it go

[Token:]

We talking love triangles

No bueno, I’m bilingual

Maybe I should try single

Just until the time pass

Will this other guy last?

“‘Course he will” My ass

I had a fragile heart

She made me break down, like glass

Letting go, I try fast

Love intersection, bypass

This is not surgery

I know you niggas heard of me

This girl killing me

Hopefully third-degree

Never planned out

In the car getting rides to your house

Just to watch movies on your couch

Hawaii 5-0 like your favorite couch

Or was it Pretty Little Liars

You’re a pretty little liar

In my heart I got fire

That boy getting tired

Of these same old games

We’ve been back and forth

In the same old lane

She’s making me insane

Blunt to my brain

Heal my migraine

When will things change?

Damn

[Token (sample from Nadia Ali repeats on background):]

Eventually you’ll see

Eventually you’ll see

Eventually you’ll see

That I’m the motherfucking realest

And I swear that I’mma own this

And all you motherfuckers know this

This is the Arcade of Dreams

Shout out to my team

And you are now rockin’ with a [?] Token

You are now rockin’ with a [?] Token

[Token:]

You with him now

Hopefully I’ll find a way

I’mma have to stay away

I will just isolate

I’m still there though

Our love is isosceles

Even when you’re with him

Far away, you’ll find me- connected

Hopefully you’ll know you’ll always be protected

Never neglected, always respected

If he disrespects ya, I’ll come correct him

Till the ref step in

Blowing whistles

Records he official

McDonalds, Mcgriddle

Girl, you love my foreplay

You’re still with him, though

You can have it your way

Let’s have it my way

Let’s have him hit the high-way

Kush up in my blunt

[?] from the sky today

You came back once, now it’s a probably

I really don’t see

Why you had to leave

I always made you cheese

You’re meant to be with me

Eventually you’ll see

[Token (sample from Nadia Ali repeats on background):]

Eventually you’ll see

Eventually you’ll see

Eventually you’ll see

That I’m the motherfucking realest

And I swear that I’mma own this

And all you motherfuckers know this

This is the Arcade of Dreams

Shout out to my team

And you are now rockin’ with a [?] Token

You are now rockin’ with a [?] Token

[Token:]

Focused on you now

I don’t need Adderall

Even at the triangle

Making equilaterals

But when you do that

There will be collateral

He don’t really love you

It’s opinionated, not factual

My shit be factual

Without you, I am crazy

This man got me lady

Gotta have my babies

Do I just let it?

Walk away, regret it?

Text to my phone saying “it’s over, accept it”

Damn

And the way that [?]

How she gon’ do this?

Make me feel so useless

I’m just so useless, useless

I’m just so useless, useless

Useless, she make em feel so useless

Token Hard White Remix

Lyrical villainy’s given epitome is officially finishing killing spree

Sickening enemies and isn’t a mystery his victory’s imminent history

Fitness agility isn’t shit to mental energy, it is a disability

‘Cause I witnessed an epiphany-

Mind over matter, gain mental ability

It’s mind over pressure. Mind over pleasure

Bash you in your mind if your mind don’t remember

That mine’s only clever

So when it comes to music, I rather spend time over cheddar

I’m better than I’ve ever been. You don’t feel me

‘Cause I’m officially better than you ever will be

I’m filthy, you’re no one special

Couldn’t stop my growth potential if you killed me

You’re not impressive you’re called the best hope you got a blessing

You’re not a small contestant, skin crawls when your jaw is spreading

The consequence is a palm to peg it and claws to stretch it

Then meet a blade named pride, you gon’ swallow, get it?

Pardon, I’m not a menus, this just how I solve aggression

The glob of darkness in my chest you call a heart is shredded

You’re nothing, you’re a pawn in chess and I’m the king to you

Or you’re the night, ’cause you take L’s when you’re making moves

Pay your dudes, this solo shit ain’t the thing for you

You’re debut got 18 views and they were mainly you

So go get fucked off a record deal, be the meat to feed ’em

And I just met with Interscope, they said I don’t even need ’em

‘Cause I’m spreading by grinding this hard dude

I’m spreading like I am the cops trying to stop a guy in his car who might have just robbed you

I’m spreading like I am the cause of viruses strong as Tyson with paws, a knife, and a glock, trying to sock you

I’m spreading like lying on Fox News

I’m moving, quicker than expected

Driven like a Lexus

You thinking you’re the best but I am thinking in a grip that you’ll be living like a peasant

Killing with a breath like it was stricken with asbestos

Sicker than a metic who was given no protection when he’s living with some men with the symptoms of a sickness equivalent to death if another kid were to catch it

Even with it, still my pen is limitless and endless

We’ve been different since second grade. When you were molding Play doh,

I was studying how Socrates molded Plato

You bought a knife but I got a sharper dome and they know

So you’re scared to your bones ’cause you don’t wanna show-da-blade though

I’m a protégé bro

You are never gonna get in my zone, okay bro?

The only way you’re serving me is to hold a plate full of spaghetti and bolognese bro

So I play no games ’cause I came

For the throne as Dayo aims at my frame

At a show don’t lay no, go insane and they say

I control the stage yo. Stay in your lane

I’m expanding mine. Branding mine

It’ll blow you away like a dandelion

Stopping this can just be fantasized

I’m doper than chemicals in Amanda Byrnes

Fuck each drug you glamorize

Glasshouse put together and they’re vandalized

Not man of crime,

So talk and get the fuck beat out of you by a fan of mine

Token Jurassic Cypher

September 24th, 1998 was the time that Satan tried awaking a beast out of its hibernation

The beast comprised of patience finally escaped the whom,

It held an umbilical cord connected to a mic and raised it high and stated,

Thou shall address me as Token

Though shall respect me as an MC and accept me as the best even if everyone neglects I am ready ’cause if any shall upset me thou shall never be woken

I am the peak to praise, I push the pinnacle of product

Every point polished, no principles a problem

I’m priceless. You pussies pretend,

But you’re piss poor from picking out your Prada

You’re pitiful, play possum

And shut your fucking lips through your jaw bone

You got an issue get a tissue and sob bro

I’m the shit to a hot load

I’m sick to a small cold

Ain’t with you, I’m Bigfoot to lawn gnomes

Got big news I just choose to not boast

You got misused bars like pitbulls have barks

And Hindus have Gods

And igloos have frost

And kids using smart phones

That’s a lot yo. I don’t ball so hard, don’t need to be

Motherfuckers want to fine me like I parked my car illegally

Dropping bars trying to knock me off is like Hanukkah during the Holocaust when the Nazis called repeatedly

I’m nodding off, in need of sleep

But I can’t stop at all, got bars and bars in need of beats

My mama called, she said stop and talk with meaning geez!

But fuck it, I’ve become a phenomenon for evil teens

15, yeah my fam is proud you guessed it

Until they heard my songs and they put me up on craigslist

So go get Token Takeover trending up on the blogs

Hashtag it after your tweet about nothing at all

Fuck it, don’t call me dumb minded when the leader of the NRA doesn’t blame guns for gun violence

And while they’re blaming hip-hop

I’m gaining amazing relationships with no hate straight from hip-hop, it’s all love

Token Falling Star

[Sample – Florence and the Machine:]

A falling star fell from your heart

And landed in my eyes

I screamed aloud

As it tore through them

And now it’s left me blind

[Token:]

Waking up, free falling

Even in my dreams I’m fly

They say I’m not ballin’

Well, I don’t know why

Drive like a Focus

My mom tells me to stay focused

I look back, relaxed

Tell her I got us, I know this

The first impression made them second guess him

Now I won’t stop till I teach the town a lesson

All about my salad

Croutons with the dressing

My name is on the ballot

But I still get second

Life’s a bitch

That’s why I’m living sexist

Never change my motto

Until I get my death wish

On a track of dreams dreams

Do y’all get the message

Always do I wreck shit

That’s why I’m living reckless

I’m young

[Sample – Florence and the Machine:]

A falling star fell from your heart

And landed in my eyes

I screamed aloud

As it tore through them

And now it’s left me blind

[Token:]

You know you’re ill

When your words give you the chills

Talking ’bout dreams

Yeah, they feel so real

Not talking Vegas

When they say I need a deal

I sleep on reality

I can’t tell what’s real

Made it past the bullets

I got a heart of steel

I can get a fortune

Without a wheel

I protect my heart

Without a shield

Driving to the money

No time for yielding

And when they take day off

I’m in the building

Feet up on the desk

Boss, I’m chilling

I used to pitch O’s out like Shilling

A monster to these tracks now I’m killing

The Game

Cruising through your lane

Court-side with a bitch

King like James

Screaming my name

I’m tryna get the fame

On the fucking ground

But, no, I’m not change

Let it be

I replace

Go off and escape

To a world of my own

This is like home

I mean, what else they want from me?

[Sample – Florence and the Machine:]

A falling star fell from your heart

And landed in my eyes

I screamed aloud

As it tore through them

And now it’s left me blind

A falling star fell from your heart

And landed in my eyes

I screamed aloud

As it tore through them

And now it’s left me blind

Token Definition Of A Rap Flow

Definition of a rap flow

I’ll give it a stab. Get them all mad when I shit on a track

‘Cause I’m an ignorant asshole

Middle finger as big as my fat nose

I’m killing the mass more than who’s shipping tobacco

Writtens will stack so

Each syllable’s amo

I’m sicking the whack ’cause I’m sick and a whacko

You’re like sixty, you’re mad old

I’m sixteen, but when I’m spitting women tell the kiddies that dad’s home

Some of these spitters be spitting this syllabic shit that I’m spitting this minute but when they be spitting it isn’t descriptive

Never saying shit in the lyric, they just spit it to spit it

You miserable ass, your shit isn’t that dope

You mimic my tracks so I’m killing you cats like dinner for japs, woah

You’re a stick on the grass

You used to be getting big in the past

But you slipped and collapsed

And it’s impossible to whiteness a stick on the grass grow

That metaphor was too quick to get that “oh!”

But I get it right back,

While you sit on your ass on twitter to have posts like

“I’m so underrated but I’m killing my raps so

Dope you can it hit it and pass yo!”

You’re old fans are kissing my ass bro

I saw them and grabbed them with my lyrical lasso

And now I got a clique, what clique do you have? Nope!

You’re out numbered like Mitt to Barack votes

Your intelect mad slow, I’m thinking it fast

Give me the pass

I’m bringing the lyrical back

Killing for Mass

Think of a track,

Scribble it quick in a pad

It’s an attack

‘Finna be mad

Big in the map

You’re ‘finna be living in shacks

I’m ‘finna be living in castles

Who’s spitting this rad yo?

That’s how to get straight like the shit was an afro

I told myself I would change the sceme but I got so many rhymes, my mind is an infinite capsule

A riveting, limitless, diligent, intricate, disciplined, militant, sickening, venomous, instrument finishing inequivalent, mimicking, innocent, primitive, feminine, hypocrite, simpleton citizens. This kid is the last hope

‘Cause rap’s looking like an idiot’s bad joke

So it’s my duty to hit the tip of the flagpole

While simultaneously getting you to trip through the trap door

So step up your game or quit ’cause can’t flow

Token Just A Couple More Words

First off, I’m sorry to my grandma

I know I said I’d call

I just read your birthday card and hung it on the wall

You are a shining star in my life and I haven’t appreciated it

I value our relationship

You are a queen, look at that mirror like you are flawless

I hope you move to Mass so I can see you more often

And we can spend more time together, yeah, I hope you live forever

Thank you for your letter

And I’m sorry to my sister, I know I was supposed to give you a time that you can call me

I saw the picture that you posted up on Twitter, it made me laugh

I was ashamed I never got back to you, that’s why I didn’t tweet back

I know you’re going through a lot, and I respect you

You’re like the smartest person who I’ve ever met too

So, I hope college is going well, I hope you’re learning stuff

Just know I care for you so much, I love you

And I ain’t got no excuses

I’ve been selfish, I’ve been foolish, I’m just trying not to lose myself

And all my talking has been useless

Said that I’m caring and I’m humble but I barely even prove myself

To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words

I’m sorry

I’ve been devoured by the power, I’m a coward

I’m through with myself

I’m sorry to my close friends at college who left the state

I promised y’all I would stay in touch, and I felt ashamed

You were my only friends when I didn’t have many

I’ve taken you for granted, recently I’ve been feeling empty

Steven you’ve been my closest friend ever since I moved over here

And Andrew you don’t even know how much you’ve helped my whole career

I’d give it all to you dudes, listen that’s what’s due too

Hit me when you’re back so we can kick it like we used to

And I’m sorry to my ex

I hope you know that when I heard how my song affected you I was so sad

You’re one of the only girls I ever really bonded with

I was self-conscious and you were the one who gave me confidence

So thank you

And I ain’t gonna lie

I still get jealous when I see you with other guys

I love the time we spent together

Some of the only time I spent as a kid

I just wish it didn’t end like it did

I’m sorry

And I ain’t got no excuses

I’ve been selfish, I’ve been foolish, I’m just trying not to lose myself

And all my talking has been useless

Said that I’m caring and I’m humble but I barely even prove myself

To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words

I’m sorry

I’ve been devoured by the power, I’m a coward

I’m through with myself

I’m sorry to my mum and dad, I’ve been embarrassed

‘Cause I barely even been a kid, but that don’t mean you ain’t been parents

I am beyond blessed to have you guys

So supportive with everything, so generous with all the time you sacrificed

Mum I’m sorry that I rush our conversations

Acting like I don’t got the patience, that is not how momma raised us

Dad I’m sorry, often you feel left in the dark

I should keep you more updated with connections I start

And I’m sorry to my fans, I’m sorry in advance

If a song or if a chant don’t meet all of your demands

My whole life I’ve dealt with anxiety and feeling cornered

And nothing gets me more anxious than a frustrated supporter

I wish I could respond to all your messages

I wish I could do all your collabs, I wish we could have a friendship

I wish I could fly you out just to show how much it means that you rock with me

I hope that this is my only apology

And I ain’t got no excuses

I’ve been selfish, I’ve been foolish, I’m just trying not to lose myself

And all my talking has been useless

Said that I’m caring and I’m humble but I barely even prove myself

To anyone I ever hurt, to anyone who deserved just a couple more words

I’m sorry

I’ve been devoured by the power, I’m a coward

I’m through with myself