Kublai Khan Ghost Pains, Pt. 3

I think too much

To be accepted and not rejected

I am the outcome of an absent father

I am the product of a single mother

She hid her doubt

To keep my heart safe

I shut my mouth

Afraid hers might break

How do you

Even begin to tell

Your child he was never wanted

Father

What did I do wrong?

Father

How could you do wrong?

You did wrong

Quick to turn your back

Even though it made me feel like trash

My mother swore to me

“We’ll be fine without him”

As she put me into my bed

And I watched her weep

The lullaby of a mother’s cry

Alone

And undeserving of her pain

I now see why she lied to me

To ease my pain

Cause there wasn’t fuck to say

Tabooed

Hush now

Whenever I would ask about you

Ask about you

Life’s a bitch when you’re a bastard

Jealous of love

I’d question my fucking self

My heartache continues everyday

So Father’s Day stay the fuck away

This is our message to you

I know now that I shouldn’t stay down

About you walking out

It’s made me who I am

And I’m fine with it

I know now that I shouldn’t stay down

About you walking out

So Romero Lanuza you can keep your life

No father or not

I will live my life without you

Go